17/7

Hmm... it's the 17th of July now.. I can't wait for 11th of August to come.. lol... hmm... yesterday I was busy watching some horror movies. Watched 1 movie called Phobia2 at my grandmother house and went home to watch ju-on:white ghost and black ghost. Hmm... I hope this is not the end of ju-on movies... I want more...lol...

I was asked by my friend to do the report part of my MBS project today. So I was waiting for my another friend to email me the file so that I can do the report. Suddenly when I open the file today, I realise that the report is done... So seriously I was like wtf? What happened? So I called my friend and he said because he chiong all the way while doing his query.... sigh.. I really wanna contribute as we are a team but suddenly when I wake up.... it's all done.... but well.. the good news is our MBS project is done and we will be able to submit on time. Soz... left with HRM report and role play now.

I wonder what happened to my manager recently. She asked me to work on this Thursday,Saturday and Sunday. Thursday morning I woke up just to see a message from my manager saying I don't have to work today. So Friday I messaged her to tell her that I will be working at 4 tmr right and she said tmr I don't have to come... only Sunday will do... I wonder did I work too much? In the first month of my work, I worked around 50 hours within a month. But in the second month of my work, I worked around 100 hours. Maybe they don't wanna pay me OT. :'(

So erm.... a few months ago I had this weird feeling inside my heart.... I once lost this feeling before because of my family and now I start to feel it back.... some say that this feeling is called crush.... some say that it's called interested...attracted....like..... and some call it love. I feel that I kinda like a girl now..... thanks to facebook, some of my classmates know that this girl is in my class too. But the matter is..... I can't ask her out..... I can't tell her that I like her..... I can't drop hints to show that I care for her.... all I can do is to watch her silently.... till we go into different class next semester. Well..... this is because I don't think she is interested in me... I once told myself I will never date a girl who is younger than me again. She isn't really cute...isn't pretty... isn't rich... sometimes I ask myself why did I like her? But perhaps this is love, there is no reason to like someone. Last week I abandoned my pride... I abandoned all my principles and messaged her for no reason. She replied and the next message I was about to send is to ask her out to have a dinner and watch a movie with me... but maybe I was weak.... I didn't send it to her. I am scared... not that she will reject me.... not that she will hurt me.... but afraid that history will repeat itself...I have been thinking a lot recently... to confess to her that I like her or to just give her up?
So I recalled... a few months ago.... when I was still dating my ex-gf, I loved her more than anyone else.... including myself. Because of my family problem and our long distance relationship, I did something cruel...... I can't give her the happiness that she deserve to have....
and so... I left her... leaving her crying every night thinking what have she done wrong that I wanna leave her alone..... I am sorry.... I am a bastard for that...

So I kept thinking..... if I can let go of the girl who I truly love more than anyone else because of that particular reason.... even if this female classmate of mine accept my confess and we date, I will still let go of her hands one day because of this reason again... I am not in a condition that is suitable to go into a relationship now... my heart isn't stable yet... which is why I keep holding back whenever I see her....

6/7

Soz....I skipped my tutorial and lecture on monday... Basically I didn't go to school. Instead, I went to SSDC to book my FTT. LOL...
Hmm... reached there at 12.30pm.... saw the ticket machine and there's like 4 options... one of them is to apply for PDL, the other is the conversion of license etc. So I pressed option 4 which is general enquiry and sat at the chair waiting for my number to be called. My number was G021 which look like GOAL. lol.. just kidding... There's only 2 counter and I am still waiting.... I waited for an hour but still, my number wasn't called.
Perhaps they think that general enquiry is not important at all... they seem to give priority to those applying for PDL etc students... and all the students there are Indians and China people... I am not really racist against them but frankly speaking, I have never seen an Indian applying for PDL at CDC. I only get to see them at SSDC.

So erm... the time was 2pm and my number is called. I waited for 1.5 hours just to ask them to print my BTT results so that I can book my FTT... lol....
went up to level 3 and took a queue number again. Guess what? I am served within 5 mins.
So I booked my FTT on 11th August at 2pm and I will try my best to pass it this time.
Hmm.... driving isn't as easy as I expect... perhaps I underestimated it.

Attended finance tutorial today and walked to the bus-stop to go home after that. Met Yuwen and we went to Farrer park to eat... Hmm... ate curry rice at one shop and it's very delicious... but it's a little expensive though...lol... my plate of curry rice with chicken cutler and fishball cause me $3.70 and Yuwen ordered some meat and his was $4.50.
Went to city square mall after that... hmm... today is the first time I shop at city square mall..lol... never go there before... so erm... ate some ice-cream... and went to play arcade..
Yuwen was telling me to play a car game called battle-gear...forgot what number of battle gear was it but the special thing about this machine is that there is a clutch pedal. So basically if you select your car to be a manual car, you have to treat it like a real life car.
To change gear, release the accelerator pedal, depress the clutch pedal fully and change your gear. After changing gear, release the clutch pedal by half and depress the accelerator pedal. This is what we call the 'biting point' when you depress your clutch pedal by half only. Well... if you release the clutch pedal by more than half or release it too suddenly, your engine will stall.... so I was like erm.. how ah? lol...
Luckily this is just a game... the engine won't stall.

Soz... after playing a game of this, yuwen asked me what have I learnt... I didn't know what to answer.... but I know the answer.... that is I learn nothing... that's what most people say when you ask them what have you learnt after you drive in real life.
In theory they say to change lane, you check your mirror, signal then check your blind spot and change lane.
But in practical, things are not as simple as it seems... you check your blind spot by turning your head to your left over your shoulder... but when you do that, you are not seeing what's happening in front. If the car in front of you jam brake, good luck to you...
Stopping distance = reaction distance + braking distance.

Anyway.. let's not talk about car anymore..lol... I have stopped betting ever since the match of Spain vs paraguay... and WOOSH!!! I won this match... thanks to David villa who scores the goal at the 80+ mins.
I remembered someone telling me 'no matter how you bet, Singapore pools will always be the biggest winner. You can win now.. you can win bit by bit.. but when you lose, you lose all your profit... and end up facing a loss. So there's 2 ways to earn money. 1st, go be a bookie. 2nd, once you are having a profit, you stop gambling.' which is why I chose the 2nd one...LOL...

Netherlands vs Uruguay... I think Netherlands will win... but that's what I think... some of my friends bought Netherlands win... some of my friends also bought Uruguay win because of the odds. Some bought guess the score. Holland 2-1 Uruguay... hoping for the same score for the 4th time.

Germany vs Spain.... I think Germany will win.... that's because I support Germany... but this will not be an easy game for the germans.... Spain is tougher than England and Argentina. Perhaps both teams will be more defensive... perhaps germany will allocate 2 men to mark David villa and spain will allocate 2 men to mark Klose. The ball is round...... sometimes, things just don't happen according to what we expect.

Oh... the holland vs uruguay is starting in 10 mins time... got to watch it at Channel 5.. cya... take care everyone...

3/7

Hmm... too busy to blog nowadays..lol.. been working... doing project... studying etc...
Well.... I failed my final theory test... but I am not gonna give up. I am going to SSDC to book my FTT because the waiting time is shorter there. Sigh.... it takes so long to sit for a test.. :(

Anyway, Brazil lost to Netherlands yesterday which shocked the hell out of me.... The half time was fine with Brazil leading 1-0 but suddenly... things turn 180 degree. lol... it became 1-2. I lost $30 because of this match.
Woke up today and saw that Uruguay vs Ghana was a draw but Uruguay won at penalty. So I lost another $5.

The match of Argentina vs Germany just now at 10pm was very exciting with Germany scoring 4-0. Woosh!!! Won $30.50 for this match and still waiting for the match of Spain vs Paraguay which I bought Spain win. lol...
Oh well... there is only 2 teams for South America left and they are Paraguay and Uruguay. There are 3 teams left for Europe which are Spain, Germany and Netherlands. Go Germany... I think Germany can win the world cup this year... with Brazil out of the game, Germany stands a chance... but there is still Spain... lol...
Anyway, I wonder when will Michael Ballack recover from his injury..... Germany may need him when they fight with Spain.

Yawn.. it's so late now.... working at 12pm tomorrow.. got to go to sleep now... take care everybody..