22/3

Hmm... There are quite a number of things I wanna talk about. Let's see erm... let's start with the disaster in Japan. I feel heartbroken to hear that there are over 20,000 people missing or dead in Japan.
Just when everyone is worried about them, they sent their regards to them, one SAF member posted a status on his Facebook. He said "There is a reason why god chose Japan".  I know what is he trying to say.
Long long time ago during world war II, Japan raped numerous women. We can't deny this fact but since it happened so many decades ago, most people have chosen not to pursue it.
However, we believe in karma which is what we known as retribution. We believe that the wrongdoings of the past generations will be paid by the future generations. This is the reason why he said that sentence in his perception.
But in my opinion, I still think that they are innocent. Catastrophe... sigh...

The number of foreigners in Singapore is increasing again. I am not worried about them taking up our job because we need them too. But then...... Singapore is a very small country. What if the number of foreigners in Singapore turns 50%? Won't people be like.... wtf?
Singapore is considered one of the safest country in the world but it's pretty hard to survive in here.

Anyway, I went to Pasir Ris downtown east last month with my family. We went to a halal food court and something caught our attention. It's this.

So what's so special about this picture? It's not about my sister and brother. It's about the chair that they were sitting on. If you look closely, it's not a chair but a swing. Have you ever sat on a swing while eating your dinner? Seriously, this is the first time me and my family ever tried it.

Erm... I seem to be interested in collecting Zippo lighters recently. I only have 2 right now but I intend to buy more.

Erm... The left one is called 'black ice'. Model number 150. Cost price: SGD 50.
The right one is a special edition which cannot be bought at www.zippo.com . I fell in love with it at first sight because it's very beautiful but I hesitated to buy it because it's very expensive. I guess I was crazy enough to buy it in the end. LOL... Zippo magic sword, model number 8533, cost price SGD 109.
Sigh...... I can't believe I spent a hundred dollar just for one special edition lighter. Anyway, while wondering whether to buy it or not, I saw many limited edition type and they are extremely rare.
There is like Honda civic type R version, Nissan GTR version etc which cost around SGD 200+. The most beautiful one cost around SGD 400+ and that's the Zippo golden angel wing limited edition.... sigh... didn't manage to take a photo of it but here's what it looks like.

It's super beautiful but it's super expensive too. LOL... I find it pretty hard to find shops that sell Zippo lighters in Singapore. I only know 2 stores that sell them but their stocks are kind of limited.
The next one I plan to buy is the gambling type. Like the 4 Ace or the royal flush. Have been looking for it all over Singapore but I don't see any.. :'(

13/3

Today is a Sunday. I wonder how are my friends? What are they doing?
Yesterday night I was with 2 of my best friend playing and drinking. We weren't drunk and we started talking about something serious..... something that affect all of us.
Life........ yup, what is life? I found out that I am not the only one who is sick and tired of life. Even my 2 best friends are tired of it. Sometime I really admire those adults living out there..... how did they manage to survive on this cruel and torturing world for so many years when I feel like dying with just 20 years.

I have this stupid and foolish mindset. If so many people are in pain right now because of their sad and pathetic life, why don't we gather everyone and commit suicide together?
I think some people(including me) regret being a human because of our past. Because humans have conscience..... when you have no choice but to go against your will, that's when you start to hate life.
I believe many people dislike life because they are not satisfied. They are unhappy with what they have now. They believe that they deserve something better than this. But then just when you thought that your life is bad enough, some people out there have a worse life than you.

Anyway, me and my friends went to the IT show today. Tong bought a anti-virus CD, his friend bought a earpiece and erm... hup bought the black ink for his printer.
Erm.... I am going to pluck out my last baby tooth tomorrow because it's shaking now.
Tomorrow my friend is going to have his first driving lesson. :D It reminds me of my first lesson last year. haha... They say without the past, there will be no present and without the present, there will be no future.

6/3

6th March.... I am at home doing nothing. I feel so bored and lonely......now that I am on vacation. Recently my nightmare came back to me once again. I feel sad....heartbroken....guilty. I am those type of people who love to hide their feelings no matter what happen. But now that my heart is crying....my tears are falling.... my mind is exploding, who can I tell my nightmare to?

They say everyone makes mistakes. You will be forgiven if you feel remorseful and you are willing to change. But still, it depend on how serious your mistake is. Some things in life are just beyond our control. It's like you have been pushed to the top of the cliff and you are forced to jump down because that's the other way to climb down the cliff.

We humans are greedy. I really really wanna know..... if you were me, will you sacrifice yourself for that particular person whom you love to the core or will you sacrifice that particular person to save yourself?