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Today morning meet in school at 8.30am for CDS project presentation rehearsal. So my part is the conclusion and our group is the first to present. So after our group end the presentation, we went back to the classroom to call the next group out and do our tutorial homework. So I saw the notice saying on 10 Feb, I will be having my CDS final sem test. So I was unhappy because actually I can have LOA for that day because DPA freshies are coming in and I can get to have fun with them on that day... then sian... I cannot go liao. After CDS tutorial ended, I went to design school to print my mkt notes but they printing for design students only.. so I went to IIT block to print. So coincident, I met yvonne, Ying jia and yuwen at the bench outside library. They are my micro group.LOL...

I don't really know what happened to me today too.... 12pm I am supposed to have my mkt lecture and I didn't go.I feel that I am unable to learn in mkt lecture at all. Mkt lec isn't nice without paul ng. So in the end, I skipped lecture.. first time in my poly life I did that... feels kinda strange... so sean told me that he was at somerset and I told him I skipped lecture. Hmm... he asked me how can like that? I am a model student but I skipped?lol.... So I was feeling guilty too. Meanwhile, almost everyone who didn't attend the lecture is sitting at the benches outside the LT. So I sat down with them and all my problems just came to me.... cigarette....exam.....everything... I have to put an end to it or else I will go mad for sure. So that point of time I thought of things that can make my mind return to normal and I have to do that because micro presentation is at 3.30pm. So I thought of drinking... Yuwen,jane and shi lin wanted to go opposite school eat so I followed them and eat. After eating I went to a supermarket to buy a can of beer and when I return back to the foodcourt.... I saw several people smoking.... I stared at them.... generally the cigarette without knowing what am I doing... It seems shocking to me because I asked myself why am I staring at the cigarette and my answer was lets try it. But I will never do that because I have seen the serious effects of smoking on my grandpa before. I no longer know what I want... I no longer know what are my dreams... without them, I can't move on.

So after all of us eat finish, we went back to school and meet up with our micro group. I started drinking at around 2pm and I drank as fast as I could... So after drinking I played counter strike using yuwen's laptop and everything seems fine... my face was red but I wasn't blur at all. Finally I manage to kill people in CS...LOL.. I know I am noob.. so at 3.20pm, it's time for us to go up and we went up... the group before us haven't enter yet. So we waited outside and I feel very sleepy... Then the group before us went in and I was still outside waiting... trying to take a nap. Then it was my group's turn to present... And I know the effects of the alcohol inside me haven't end yet. So I am starting to be blur and so I went to toilet to wash my face. Even during the presentation, I was blur. Looks like I may fail quitting drinking... we shall see...sigh...

Anyway erm.. I don't want to say who is this girl but her appearance today seriously shocked the hell out of me.. I didn't expect her to wear like that to school... spoiled my image of her.. sigh.... Therefore, I created a law of mine called ' First impression is never accurate'.

So the micro presentation ended and we stayed back to take some pictures... then we went home.. I was in bus 8 and I still feel sleepy.. so I took a nap and manage to wake up in time to stop at Ubi there. Then I took bus 854 and I fall asleep. When I wake up, the bus just nice left the bus stop where I am suppose to get down. So I have to pretend that nothing has happened and then I pressed the doorbell. So today I ended up walking extra distance home. So I went home to bath.... after that I went out again to find h-k. Everytime when I see her, I will be happy for sure.. but the problem is....sigh.... tomorrow and friday is the last day we can stay together... and tomorrow I have to study for my bus stats test.... sian... spoil my mood....

Hmm... I shall end here bah... Good luck to everyone taking bus stats test on friday. Don't forget it's open book.