31st March..... last day of March... A memorable day again....
For some reason, I have 3 wallet now and I don't know what to do with them. Hmm... can I sell them? LOL...
Tomorrow is April fool day. What kind of prank will you get?
Hmm.... yesterday night I couldn't sleep at all. My mind was in a chaos. I have been thinking whether that silly decision made by me was right or wrong.
Yesterday about 6pm, Lovely came online. I was damn happy and so I double clicked her to chat with her. We were chatting happily but suddenly... something came into my mind. I wanna tell her the truth...because I think she deserve to know the truth. But after knowing the truth, I am gonna be cruel by asking her to leave me.
So I called her and she picked up the phone on msn. I started telling her the truth about what I have been thinking after she left SG and about my parents too.
Well.. I am sorry.... I think she deserve someone better than me.If her father is aware of the truth about my parents, I am sure he will not accept me as Koreans are very particular about family background. I told Lovely not to tell her father because I don't want them to quarrel.
The problem between us isn't something serious. But both me and Lovely have no more energy left to fight this long battle. Maybe our love isn't those kind of couple love. Maybe it's those kind of brother-sister love instead.
I feel guilty when I ask her to leave me. But my instinct tell me that both of us will feel better if we break up. So she asked me if I am serious and I was like ya.... So I guess we are close friend right now. She taught me lots of stuff and I appreciate it... it's just that maybe..... we are not meant to be together as a couple. We are meant to be together as a best friend.
I believe she is able to find a caring boyfriend who can love her more than I love her. Sorry,Lovely... I broke your heart again. But this is gonna be the last time. We won't feel so tired anymore.
So yesterday night when I was sleeping... my conscience came to haunt me. My conscience tell me that I shouldn't have done that... I should have hang on. But my instinct tell me that I should end this pain before we waste more time.
sigh.... love is sweet but painful. Since I chose to let her go..... I am not gonna regret it anymore... I respect that silly decision made by me. May god give her all the happiness that she should have. May my instinct prove me that my decision is right. Take care, my new sister. :)
31 March 2010
30 March 2010
30/3
watching cruel temptation on channel U. Sigh... damn sad... both Shen aili and qiao bing died in the sea.
Oh well... since the director want both of them to die, they have to die...lol... but seriously it's very touching. Almost cried....
What's the latest drama or movie that made you cry? I remember mine was a movie called 'money no enough 2'. The part where the grandmother sacrificed her own life to save her granddaughter.
My mum promised to buy me a can of Heineken today but she said it's out of stock. Hmm... a supermarket that runs out of Heineken... LOL.... what kind of supermarket is this?
Nothing much to talk about today. Let me share with you a joke. You may have heard it before but still, it's funny.
3 men went to an isolated island to search for treasures. They fell asleep in the middle of the night. The next morning, they woke up and shouted for help as they were tied to a tree. 4 barbarians came and the leader started to speak. He wants the 3 of them to find 10 fruits of the same kind and bring it back here within 2 hours. If they fail to do so, they will have to die.
An hour later, the first man came back with 10 apples. The barbarian leader asked him to push these 10 apples in his bum one by one without any expression. If there is any expression, he will be killed.
The innocent man pushed the first apple in.It's painful but he bore with it. He pushed in the second apple and it's too painful for him. He shouted out loud and he was killed.
The second man came back with 10 cherries. He was asked to do the same task by the barbarian leader. The innocent man pushed in the first cherry and he finds that it's pretty easy. So he pushed the cherries in one by one till the 9th cherry. He was about to push in the last cherry but he started laughing out loud instead. He was killed for laughing.
In heaven, the first and the second man met. The first man asked him why did he laugh? It's such as waste as he's almost finishing. The second man replied him: I was about to push in the 10th cherry but I saw the third man walking back with 10 pineapples. LMAO.
Oh well... since the director want both of them to die, they have to die...lol... but seriously it's very touching. Almost cried....
What's the latest drama or movie that made you cry? I remember mine was a movie called 'money no enough 2'. The part where the grandmother sacrificed her own life to save her granddaughter.
My mum promised to buy me a can of Heineken today but she said it's out of stock. Hmm... a supermarket that runs out of Heineken... LOL.... what kind of supermarket is this?
Nothing much to talk about today. Let me share with you a joke. You may have heard it before but still, it's funny.
3 men went to an isolated island to search for treasures. They fell asleep in the middle of the night. The next morning, they woke up and shouted for help as they were tied to a tree. 4 barbarians came and the leader started to speak. He wants the 3 of them to find 10 fruits of the same kind and bring it back here within 2 hours. If they fail to do so, they will have to die.
An hour later, the first man came back with 10 apples. The barbarian leader asked him to push these 10 apples in his bum one by one without any expression. If there is any expression, he will be killed.
The innocent man pushed the first apple in.It's painful but he bore with it. He pushed in the second apple and it's too painful for him. He shouted out loud and he was killed.
The second man came back with 10 cherries. He was asked to do the same task by the barbarian leader. The innocent man pushed in the first cherry and he finds that it's pretty easy. So he pushed the cherries in one by one till the 9th cherry. He was about to push in the last cherry but he started laughing out loud instead. He was killed for laughing.
In heaven, the first and the second man met. The first man asked him why did he laugh? It's such as waste as he's almost finishing. The second man replied him: I was about to push in the 10th cherry but I saw the third man walking back with 10 pineapples. LMAO.
29/3
Went out today to my mother's friend house. Her baby is so cute... haha. Went home to bath and went out to Hougang plaza. Waited for Hup to come and went upstairs to play pool. Had great fun with the 3 of them. Went to have dinner after that and window shopping... haha... window shopping is nice....especially when you don't have money. LOL.
Hmm... something's wrong with my laptop battery.
The woman in the picture above is from Korea. Her name is Lee Young Ae. She's the main actress in the drama 'jewel in the palace.'
I was a fan of her after I watched her drama. I was touched by her when I saw the behind the scene of jewel in the palace. She was having fever and it was raining heavily. Instead of resting, she was memorizing her script.
Anyway, she got married a few years ago to a Korea businessman in America. It's said that her husband own an American passport. So did her husband migrate to USA or is he still a Korea citizen? lol... kinda confused.
Sigh... my Heineken umbrella is spoilt. I want to buy another one but it's not for sale. The umbrella isn't on the promotion anymore... sob sob... :'(
I WANT MY HEINEKEN UMBRELLA!!! sigh.. damn upset...
Dear readers, anyone of you have it? I am willing to buy it at a high price. :D
Hmm.. what was I trying to write?.....erm.... I forgot what I wanna say after thinking of my umbrella.
Oh yes, do not ever judge a book by its cover and front page. You must read the book to understand it. Well.. actually I am talking about human. It's just that I am using the book as an example. Most people search for their girlfriend/boyfriend based on appearance first.
Imagine you get to know a beautiful girl. You are her friend and you liked her. You spent lots of time trying to date her out. One special day, she accepted you. You are extremely happy. But months later, you find that her behavior is bad. Her attitude is even worse. Who can you blame? You can only blame yourself for choosing that book with the title 'Richard's life' thinking that it's a fantastic book but after reading 5 pages, you will say this book sucks.
So if we shouldn't find a girlfriend/boyfriend based on appearance, what should we look for?
The answer is just a word. Instinct.
Follow your instinct. Your instinct will help you judge that person. Your instinct will tell you what kind of girlfriend/boyfriend she/he will be. In general, believe in yourself.
Do not rush, you need time to understand him. You may feel that you know him very well but the truth is you don't know him. Do not let halo effect affect you.
Do take your time to find out who you truly love. Do drop hints purposely. Do care about him.
No one is perfect in this world.
Following my DO and DO NOT is definitely not enough. There are so many things you wanna consider when choosing your partner. Just follow your instinct and take action on the right time. Erm... the action I am referring to is not rape. It's to drop hints.
I am not joking. You seriously need the right time to drop hints.
Remember Richard's 2 principles of dating.
1: Everyone is allowed to have one girlfriend/boyfriend only.
2: Do not date a girl who just broke up with her boyfriend. If you rush, she will take you as a replacement. Same goes to the girls.
If you follow this Richard's 2 principles of dating, you are safe.
Well, if you can't agree with what I have been saying, I apologise for that. They are just my opinion. :)
Hmm... Hougang mall is having big sales. They are selling comic books. Some at $0.50 each and some at $1 each. Damn cheap right? The first thing I did wasn't to choose which one to buy. The first thing I did was to see if Kingdom hearts comic book is there. I bought it for $8.50 each. I will kill them if there is Kingdom hearts. lol.
Hmm... something's wrong with my laptop battery.
The woman in the picture above is from Korea. Her name is Lee Young Ae. She's the main actress in the drama 'jewel in the palace.'
I was a fan of her after I watched her drama. I was touched by her when I saw the behind the scene of jewel in the palace. She was having fever and it was raining heavily. Instead of resting, she was memorizing her script.
Anyway, she got married a few years ago to a Korea businessman in America. It's said that her husband own an American passport. So did her husband migrate to USA or is he still a Korea citizen? lol... kinda confused.
Sigh... my Heineken umbrella is spoilt. I want to buy another one but it's not for sale. The umbrella isn't on the promotion anymore... sob sob... :'(
I WANT MY HEINEKEN UMBRELLA!!! sigh.. damn upset...
Dear readers, anyone of you have it? I am willing to buy it at a high price. :D
Hmm.. what was I trying to write?.....erm.... I forgot what I wanna say after thinking of my umbrella.
Oh yes, do not ever judge a book by its cover and front page. You must read the book to understand it. Well.. actually I am talking about human. It's just that I am using the book as an example. Most people search for their girlfriend/boyfriend based on appearance first.
Imagine you get to know a beautiful girl. You are her friend and you liked her. You spent lots of time trying to date her out. One special day, she accepted you. You are extremely happy. But months later, you find that her behavior is bad. Her attitude is even worse. Who can you blame? You can only blame yourself for choosing that book with the title 'Richard's life' thinking that it's a fantastic book but after reading 5 pages, you will say this book sucks.
So if we shouldn't find a girlfriend/boyfriend based on appearance, what should we look for?
The answer is just a word. Instinct.
Follow your instinct. Your instinct will help you judge that person. Your instinct will tell you what kind of girlfriend/boyfriend she/he will be. In general, believe in yourself.
Do not rush, you need time to understand him. You may feel that you know him very well but the truth is you don't know him. Do not let halo effect affect you.
Do take your time to find out who you truly love. Do drop hints purposely. Do care about him.
No one is perfect in this world.
Following my DO and DO NOT is definitely not enough. There are so many things you wanna consider when choosing your partner. Just follow your instinct and take action on the right time. Erm... the action I am referring to is not rape. It's to drop hints.
I am not joking. You seriously need the right time to drop hints.
Remember Richard's 2 principles of dating.
1: Everyone is allowed to have one girlfriend/boyfriend only.
2: Do not date a girl who just broke up with her boyfriend. If you rush, she will take you as a replacement. Same goes to the girls.
If you follow this Richard's 2 principles of dating, you are safe.
Well, if you can't agree with what I have been saying, I apologise for that. They are just my opinion. :)
Hmm... Hougang mall is having big sales. They are selling comic books. Some at $0.50 each and some at $1 each. Damn cheap right? The first thing I did wasn't to choose which one to buy. The first thing I did was to see if Kingdom hearts comic book is there. I bought it for $8.50 each. I will kill them if there is Kingdom hearts. lol.
28 March 2010
28/3
Going out with Sean and Leslie to play pool tomorrow but the matter is the time and venue have not been decided yet.LOL.
Today went to Hougang mall. My mum asked me to buy TOTO for her. Surprisingly.... I walked in Cheers and ZOMG.... so many people. But oh well... I still queue up. I saw several old Chinese uncle and auntie. There were some Indians too. I am not insulting but it's weird to see them buying 4D and TOTO. They know how to bet too..haha.. As I was queuing up, an old uncle caught my attention. He was at the cashier paying for his bet. It's common to see someone paying for his bet but the uncommon thing is that he was holding $250.
He paid the cashier $250. I seriously wonder what the hell is wrong with these uncle and auntie? They are willing to spend so much on gambling but they are not willing to spend that much on food.
I hope those adults out there understand the main purpose of 4D and TOTO. These games are just for entertainment. We should not rely on it to earn money. Hmm.. I haven't check the 4D result for today... wonder if I strike.... lol... don't worry... I have never bet more than $5 before and never will.
I saw a Caucasian at Hougang mall today. It's kinda rare to see one at such a place. haha... I guess I am lucky.
Hmm.. I guess that's all for today... take care, people..... enjoy your day.
Almost forgot... Today I bought the yam fries from old chang kee. It's pretty special... but a piece of advice, do not buy it. It cost $1.90 and it isn't nice at all.
Hmm.. good night.
Today went to Hougang mall. My mum asked me to buy TOTO for her. Surprisingly.... I walked in Cheers and ZOMG.... so many people. But oh well... I still queue up. I saw several old Chinese uncle and auntie. There were some Indians too. I am not insulting but it's weird to see them buying 4D and TOTO. They know how to bet too..haha.. As I was queuing up, an old uncle caught my attention. He was at the cashier paying for his bet. It's common to see someone paying for his bet but the uncommon thing is that he was holding $250.
He paid the cashier $250. I seriously wonder what the hell is wrong with these uncle and auntie? They are willing to spend so much on gambling but they are not willing to spend that much on food.
I hope those adults out there understand the main purpose of 4D and TOTO. These games are just for entertainment. We should not rely on it to earn money. Hmm.. I haven't check the 4D result for today... wonder if I strike.... lol... don't worry... I have never bet more than $5 before and never will.
I saw a Caucasian at Hougang mall today. It's kinda rare to see one at such a place. haha... I guess I am lucky.
Hmm.. I guess that's all for today... take care, people..... enjoy your day.
Almost forgot... Today I bought the yam fries from old chang kee. It's pretty special... but a piece of advice, do not buy it. It cost $1.90 and it isn't nice at all.
Hmm.. good night.
27/3
Went to Parkway today. Ate steamboat there. After that went to shop around but didn't really buy anything. Bought ice-cream. Ate KFC at 11pm.
This sound boring huh.... LOL
Me and my family went to eat KFC at 10.45PM. They were closing but luckily, we are the last customer. After eating, we took bus home and on the way home, my auntie and my sister were discussing about the legal age to smoke and drink in Singapore. They feel that the legal age of 18 is too young. Teenagers are smoking at the age of 13 to 16 and everyone know that smoking is bad for health.
My auntie think that the legal age should be 21. Well.... I find that 21 is reasonable. People who are 21 are considered an adult and they are said to be more matured. Japan legal age for drinking is 20 and Korea legal age is 19(western age)/ 20(Korean age)
As I said before in my previous blog post, Korea have a weird age system. For example, Koreans born in the year 1991 should be 19 years old now after his birthday but according to this system, you have to add one year old to their current age. That means this Korean man is 20 years old in Korea now. Therefore, to us their legal age is 19 but to Koreans, their legal age is 20.
India's legal age is 25 and that's very high. Most countries are 18 to 21.
Anyway, today I heard a song. It's sorry sorry by super junior. After that, I heard some songs by SNSD(소녀시대) which is known as Girls' Generation. A few days ago, all these Korean bands caught my attention. I know I am slow... but I realise that all these bands consists of single gender only. Super junior consist of all boys. Girls' generation consist of all girls. Wonder girls consist of all girls too.... Brown eyed girls consist of all girls too. Why isn't there any mixed gender band?
I asked Lovely why and she said it's natural. Since young, Koreans are sent to single sex school from kindergarten to secondary school. Only some school have mixed gender. Most school in Korea are still single sex school.It's only recent that the government decided to create some mixed gender school. That's why blind dating still exist in Korea.
Hmm.. I was a little shocked when I heard this. I didn't know Lovely is in a single sex school.
So she went on to say that they make friends of opposite sex by non-school activities such as dance school,pub, private English classes etc....
Korean girls tend to be more ambitious than the guys. The girls want power and the guys are afraid of the girls. LOL... this sound funny.
Another reason why Korean bands are single gender is that the girls want to show the guys that they can dance better. On the other hand, the guys want to show that they can dance and perform better.
But in the future, mixed gender band will start to be formed.
Sigh... how I wish I am in Seoul now.
열심히 공부하다, Lovely. 내가 사랑하고 당신이 그리워.
This sound boring huh.... LOL
Me and my family went to eat KFC at 10.45PM. They were closing but luckily, we are the last customer. After eating, we took bus home and on the way home, my auntie and my sister were discussing about the legal age to smoke and drink in Singapore. They feel that the legal age of 18 is too young. Teenagers are smoking at the age of 13 to 16 and everyone know that smoking is bad for health.
My auntie think that the legal age should be 21. Well.... I find that 21 is reasonable. People who are 21 are considered an adult and they are said to be more matured. Japan legal age for drinking is 20 and Korea legal age is 19(western age)/ 20(Korean age)
As I said before in my previous blog post, Korea have a weird age system. For example, Koreans born in the year 1991 should be 19 years old now after his birthday but according to this system, you have to add one year old to their current age. That means this Korean man is 20 years old in Korea now. Therefore, to us their legal age is 19 but to Koreans, their legal age is 20.
India's legal age is 25 and that's very high. Most countries are 18 to 21.
Anyway, today I heard a song. It's sorry sorry by super junior. After that, I heard some songs by SNSD(소녀시대) which is known as Girls' Generation. A few days ago, all these Korean bands caught my attention. I know I am slow... but I realise that all these bands consists of single gender only. Super junior consist of all boys. Girls' generation consist of all girls. Wonder girls consist of all girls too.... Brown eyed girls consist of all girls too. Why isn't there any mixed gender band?
I asked Lovely why and she said it's natural. Since young, Koreans are sent to single sex school from kindergarten to secondary school. Only some school have mixed gender. Most school in Korea are still single sex school.It's only recent that the government decided to create some mixed gender school. That's why blind dating still exist in Korea.
Hmm.. I was a little shocked when I heard this. I didn't know Lovely is in a single sex school.
So she went on to say that they make friends of opposite sex by non-school activities such as dance school,pub, private English classes etc....
Korean girls tend to be more ambitious than the guys. The girls want power and the guys are afraid of the girls. LOL... this sound funny.
Another reason why Korean bands are single gender is that the girls want to show the guys that they can dance better. On the other hand, the guys want to show that they can dance and perform better.
But in the future, mixed gender band will start to be formed.
Sigh... how I wish I am in Seoul now.
열심히 공부하다, Lovely. 내가 사랑하고 당신이 그리워.
26 March 2010
26/3
Hmm... it's 7.24pm now... I got to go at 8.00pm.
Oh recently there was this Asience advertisement. I remember that girl.... the girl who acted in Death note as Kira's girlfriend.
Hmm.... Jing kai.... sigh.... I wonder how is he...
Anyone know where to buy Heineken special dark edition?
I drank Carlsberg special brew(8.8%) and Tiger beer special edition(5.5%) before. I heard there is Heineken special dark.
Cruel temptation 2nd last episode.
Oh recently there was this Asience advertisement. I remember that girl.... the girl who acted in Death note as Kira's girlfriend.
Hmm.... Jing kai.... sigh.... I wonder how is he...
Anyone know where to buy Heineken special dark edition?
I drank Carlsberg special brew(8.8%) and Tiger beer special edition(5.5%) before. I heard there is Heineken special dark.
Cruel temptation 2nd last episode.
horror again!
Another horror movie worth watching.
ju-on
Well....it's just a trailer. If you are interested, it's coming soon in April in Singapore.
But if you are afraid of horror movies,just like me, you can go youtube to watch it.
Hmm... I was wrong... I thought that Ju-on is a Korean movie but it's a Japanese movie.
But no matter which country it's from, trust me. Ju-on is a movie worth watching.
ju-on
Well....it's just a trailer. If you are interested, it's coming soon in April in Singapore.
But if you are afraid of horror movies,just like me, you can go youtube to watch it.
Hmm... I was wrong... I thought that Ju-on is a Korean movie but it's a Japanese movie.
But no matter which country it's from, trust me. Ju-on is a movie worth watching.
25 March 2010
25/3
Hi people, how are you? I couldn't blog at all yesterday because I was having sunburn and my muscle got cramp and it's pretty painful.
Hmm... viewing from Facebook, I believe 1B23 did enjoy their day at marina barrage yesterday.
Yesterday me,Sean,Leslie and Tong heng went to Pulau Ubin. We met at Tampines bus interchange at 10am and took bus 29. Reached Changi jetty about 11am and Sean wanted to take a smoke. So me and the rest went to tour around. After that we went to queue up for the boat. There must be 12 passengers before the boat set off. There were 6 people in front of us and that means that we have 10 in total. After 5 minutes, 2 more came and we set off.
We reached there and went to take a map of the island. Sean fell down and his leg was bleeding... Ouch....that hurts... but he say it's alright. So we move on to the bicycle shop to rent bicycles. It was expensive as the bicycles cost us $10 each. After 5 minutes of cycling, Sean's bicycle was having problem and he have to take it back to the shop to exchange for another one. So the 4 of us got off our bicycle and joined Sean by pushing our bicycle too. Haha... it wasn't tiring... it was fun instead. Reached there and the shop owner changed another bicycle for Sean. The 4 of us went on cycling to the place where we stopped. While cycling, we saw several Caucasians and I was surprised by it. I wonder where are they from?
We cycle around and cool... the tiring part is here. There are several up slope and it's very hard for us to cycle up as it require lots of energy. Everytime we see an up slope, Sean will scold....haha.... Some down slope are very steep too. Gotta be careful.
We went back to the jetty to wait for the boat to bring us back. There were 10 people there already so they need 2 more. Sean and Leslie joined the first boat. Me and tong heng sat down while waiting for the 2nd boat. 5 mins later there were 12 people again so we got in the boat. I started drinking the wine inside my bag. When we reach Changi village, my face was extremely red. We need to get our bags checked....just like you are going overseas. We went off after that to take bus 109 to Seng kang.
I fell asleep because of the alcohol in me but I remember hearing tong heng and Leslie chatting. Sean was pretty tired. Sean called me up when we are reaching and I got up. We got down and hey... there is pasar malam at Compass point. So we went in to buy some snacks like chicken nugget.... takoyaki..... After one bite of the chicken nugget, I sense something wrong. I wanna throw up suddenly... went to a corner and threw up.... I guess I drank too much. I forgot that I didn't eat anything before I drank. Anyway, felt better after throwing up. We sat at a place for 20 mins because we were thinking what to eat for lunch....lol.. Sean told Leslie to find a stranger and ask her what are the good food in Seng Kang. haha.. we went to Hougang to eat after that and I couldn't finish mine... kinda full.... went home after that.
Slept for several hours and woke up to watch my favorite drama.
My mum woke up this morning at 8am to bring my grandfather to the hospital for a check-up. Me and my brother were sleeping and hours later, he woke up. Usually when he woke up, he will try to find my mother. If he doesn't see my mother, he will open my room door and shout to see if my mum is inside the house. If he hear no response, he will cry. But today he's a little special. He went out and shouted for my mum. My mum isn't at home so she can't reply. I woke up and saw him standing at the stairs. So I called him. He asked me where is mum and I told him mum went out to buy some stuff... I was surprise that he didn't cry. I asked him whether he wanna sleep beside me and he slept... kinda feel that my brother has changed.
Hmm... look like I spammed my blog with stories...haha... I heard IP man 2 is coming soon in April and I wanna watch it. The main actor in this show is very cool... I heard Ong Bak 3 is coming soon also... Hmm... ju-on: white ghost and black ghost is worth to watch. There are 2 stories in it.
Oh man... Jesseca Liu quits MediaCorp? Why? I like her show.... well... the minor reason being she is pretty and the major reason being she is good in acting. Sigh... Oh well... not as if I can stop her from quitting...haha....
Singapore's Changi Airport have been awarded as the best airport in the world in 2010. Hmm... that's something nice.... But just a question I have been thinking.... does travelers like Changi airport or Singapore Airlines(SIA)? haha...
Erm... recently there is a new method of scam. Strangers will send you message saying that you have won some cash. Do not believe it. It's a scam.
Hmm... viewing from Facebook, I believe 1B23 did enjoy their day at marina barrage yesterday.
Yesterday me,Sean,Leslie and Tong heng went to Pulau Ubin. We met at Tampines bus interchange at 10am and took bus 29. Reached Changi jetty about 11am and Sean wanted to take a smoke. So me and the rest went to tour around. After that we went to queue up for the boat. There must be 12 passengers before the boat set off. There were 6 people in front of us and that means that we have 10 in total. After 5 minutes, 2 more came and we set off.
We reached there and went to take a map of the island. Sean fell down and his leg was bleeding... Ouch....that hurts... but he say it's alright. So we move on to the bicycle shop to rent bicycles. It was expensive as the bicycles cost us $10 each. After 5 minutes of cycling, Sean's bicycle was having problem and he have to take it back to the shop to exchange for another one. So the 4 of us got off our bicycle and joined Sean by pushing our bicycle too. Haha... it wasn't tiring... it was fun instead. Reached there and the shop owner changed another bicycle for Sean. The 4 of us went on cycling to the place where we stopped. While cycling, we saw several Caucasians and I was surprised by it. I wonder where are they from?
We cycle around and cool... the tiring part is here. There are several up slope and it's very hard for us to cycle up as it require lots of energy. Everytime we see an up slope, Sean will scold....haha.... Some down slope are very steep too. Gotta be careful.
We went back to the jetty to wait for the boat to bring us back. There were 10 people there already so they need 2 more. Sean and Leslie joined the first boat. Me and tong heng sat down while waiting for the 2nd boat. 5 mins later there were 12 people again so we got in the boat. I started drinking the wine inside my bag. When we reach Changi village, my face was extremely red. We need to get our bags checked....just like you are going overseas. We went off after that to take bus 109 to Seng kang.
I fell asleep because of the alcohol in me but I remember hearing tong heng and Leslie chatting. Sean was pretty tired. Sean called me up when we are reaching and I got up. We got down and hey... there is pasar malam at Compass point. So we went in to buy some snacks like chicken nugget.... takoyaki..... After one bite of the chicken nugget, I sense something wrong. I wanna throw up suddenly... went to a corner and threw up.... I guess I drank too much. I forgot that I didn't eat anything before I drank. Anyway, felt better after throwing up. We sat at a place for 20 mins because we were thinking what to eat for lunch....lol.. Sean told Leslie to find a stranger and ask her what are the good food in Seng Kang. haha.. we went to Hougang to eat after that and I couldn't finish mine... kinda full.... went home after that.
Slept for several hours and woke up to watch my favorite drama.
My mum woke up this morning at 8am to bring my grandfather to the hospital for a check-up. Me and my brother were sleeping and hours later, he woke up. Usually when he woke up, he will try to find my mother. If he doesn't see my mother, he will open my room door and shout to see if my mum is inside the house. If he hear no response, he will cry. But today he's a little special. He went out and shouted for my mum. My mum isn't at home so she can't reply. I woke up and saw him standing at the stairs. So I called him. He asked me where is mum and I told him mum went out to buy some stuff... I was surprise that he didn't cry. I asked him whether he wanna sleep beside me and he slept... kinda feel that my brother has changed.
Hmm... look like I spammed my blog with stories...haha... I heard IP man 2 is coming soon in April and I wanna watch it. The main actor in this show is very cool... I heard Ong Bak 3 is coming soon also... Hmm... ju-on: white ghost and black ghost is worth to watch. There are 2 stories in it.
Oh man... Jesseca Liu quits MediaCorp? Why? I like her show.... well... the minor reason being she is pretty and the major reason being she is good in acting. Sigh... Oh well... not as if I can stop her from quitting...haha....
Singapore's Changi Airport have been awarded as the best airport in the world in 2010. Hmm... that's something nice.... But just a question I have been thinking.... does travelers like Changi airport or Singapore Airlines(SIA)? haha...
Erm... recently there is a new method of scam. Strangers will send you message saying that you have won some cash. Do not believe it. It's a scam.
23 March 2010
23/3*
Hmm.... there are many things I wanna say today but I don't know where to start....
Hmm....*30 minutes later* yesterday I went to my grandma house. I decided to take a bus home and went to the bus-stop to wait for the bus. A boy who look like my age was smoking at the bus-stop. I have nothing against smokers as one of my best friend do smoke. I understand that different people have different lifestyle, that's why we can't criticize people. But please.... can the smokers out there please do not smoke in the restricted area such as the bus-stop? People in the bus-stop are taking in the 2nd hand cigarette and that includes my 4 years old brother. Please be more responsible.... care about others too.
The government is increasing the price of cigarette. Look like they want to cut down the number of people who smoke.
Tomorrow my classmates are meeting at marina barrage for picnic but I am not going...LOL.... I have something to attend to. So sorry... have fun, people.
Yesterday night me and my mother were chatting.... she told me all her sad stories.... she told me things about my father that I don't know. Hmm... my father have 2 mothers and 2 fathers? It's kinda complicated over here.... I was told that I was supposed to have another elder sister... but my mum aborted it. So I was pretty shocked because I didn't know about that.... mum told me the reason why she aborted it and we went on chatting. Sigh.... she should be 22 years old by now if she is in this world.....that's 3 years older than me..
Oh well.. what's done cannot be undone.
People say that there is no point crying over spilled milk. It's wrong. They are not crying because the milk is spilled. They are crying because they know that they are the one who spilled the milk. Not anyone else.
After so many months, I finally have the courage to tell my mum that I have changed my name to Richard. I was kinda afraid that she will be angry because I changed it without letting her knowing it. But to my surprise.... she wasn't angry....she wasn't unhappy..... I told her the reason why I wanna change my name and she was explaining to me that changing my name can't change anything. I understand.... but the matter is for the past 18 years I have been living without a purpose in life. I don't know why am I here..... I don't know what are my goals? To work or to earn money? To care or to love? I have been trying to find what's that thing out there that is keeping us fighting. I wanna know what am I fighting for. Am I fighting for myself? Am I fighting for my happiness? Or am I fighting for my family? I wanna change my life.... to do that, I have to start a new leaf. Ever since the day I change my name I tell myself that I am gonna live for a different reason this time. I started changing everything of mine.. I change my personality....I change the way I look at things. I change everything and tell myself that the childish and playful days are over. I am matured now. It's time I make full use of my time. I believe that things are gonna change according to what I expected...... because my name is Richard. I will not live like before. People are fighting out there because they wanna be successful. If they can be successful, I can't think of a reason why can't I. If they are fighting for survival then I will fight for my own survival too.
I wanna show my mum that my new name isn't just a name. It's a new life.
Thank you,mum.
Hmm... went out with Hup today to watch a movie. It isn't really that nice but we enjoyed it. On our way back, we witnessed a car accident. Sian.... I forgot to look at the car plate number... go buy 4D. LOL.... Nah... I am not that kind of person. I was seeing how serious is it.. anyone dead or injured? Accidents are very scary. It happened to me once before.
Oh great.. it's 9.45PM now... I started blogging since 8.00PM.... kinda fall asleep just now while blogging...haha....
New Richard's law: No one can go back and change the past but everyone can start now and change your life.
Hmm....*30 minutes later* yesterday I went to my grandma house. I decided to take a bus home and went to the bus-stop to wait for the bus. A boy who look like my age was smoking at the bus-stop. I have nothing against smokers as one of my best friend do smoke. I understand that different people have different lifestyle, that's why we can't criticize people. But please.... can the smokers out there please do not smoke in the restricted area such as the bus-stop? People in the bus-stop are taking in the 2nd hand cigarette and that includes my 4 years old brother. Please be more responsible.... care about others too.
The government is increasing the price of cigarette. Look like they want to cut down the number of people who smoke.
Tomorrow my classmates are meeting at marina barrage for picnic but I am not going...LOL.... I have something to attend to. So sorry... have fun, people.
Yesterday night me and my mother were chatting.... she told me all her sad stories.... she told me things about my father that I don't know. Hmm... my father have 2 mothers and 2 fathers? It's kinda complicated over here.... I was told that I was supposed to have another elder sister... but my mum aborted it. So I was pretty shocked because I didn't know about that.... mum told me the reason why she aborted it and we went on chatting. Sigh.... she should be 22 years old by now if she is in this world.....that's 3 years older than me..
Oh well.. what's done cannot be undone.
People say that there is no point crying over spilled milk. It's wrong. They are not crying because the milk is spilled. They are crying because they know that they are the one who spilled the milk. Not anyone else.
After so many months, I finally have the courage to tell my mum that I have changed my name to Richard. I was kinda afraid that she will be angry because I changed it without letting her knowing it. But to my surprise.... she wasn't angry....she wasn't unhappy..... I told her the reason why I wanna change my name and she was explaining to me that changing my name can't change anything. I understand.... but the matter is for the past 18 years I have been living without a purpose in life. I don't know why am I here..... I don't know what are my goals? To work or to earn money? To care or to love? I have been trying to find what's that thing out there that is keeping us fighting. I wanna know what am I fighting for. Am I fighting for myself? Am I fighting for my happiness? Or am I fighting for my family? I wanna change my life.... to do that, I have to start a new leaf. Ever since the day I change my name I tell myself that I am gonna live for a different reason this time. I started changing everything of mine.. I change my personality....I change the way I look at things. I change everything and tell myself that the childish and playful days are over. I am matured now. It's time I make full use of my time. I believe that things are gonna change according to what I expected...... because my name is Richard. I will not live like before. People are fighting out there because they wanna be successful. If they can be successful, I can't think of a reason why can't I. If they are fighting for survival then I will fight for my own survival too.
I wanna show my mum that my new name isn't just a name. It's a new life.
Thank you,mum.
Hmm... went out with Hup today to watch a movie. It isn't really that nice but we enjoyed it. On our way back, we witnessed a car accident. Sian.... I forgot to look at the car plate number... go buy 4D. LOL.... Nah... I am not that kind of person. I was seeing how serious is it.. anyone dead or injured? Accidents are very scary. It happened to me once before.
Oh great.. it's 9.45PM now... I started blogging since 8.00PM.... kinda fall asleep just now while blogging...haha....
New Richard's law: No one can go back and change the past but everyone can start now and change your life.
22 March 2010
22/3
Phew... finally done with the house chores....
Yesterday night I was waiting at a bus-stop for bus 113 to arrive so that I can go home. A vehicle drove in and parked at the bus-stop. 2 men got off the car and they started sweeping those leaves on the ground. It was around 11pm at that point in time.... I am amazed.... it's pretty hardworking for them to work at this timing. They must be hired by the government to keep our environment clean. But thinking back, I kinda think that it's useless.
You see.... everywhere you go, you see leaves falling on the ground. You see more leaves on the ground during rainy days. Is it possible to throw all the fallen leaves away? I don't think so.
They can sweep for a day.....a week.... or even a month. But the leaves will keep falling.
However, it's still their job to gather and discard those leaves. To clean up as many as they can.... that's their purpose.
Speaking of environment, are you saving the earth? Everyone has a part to play in saving the environment. There are many ways you can save the environment. For example, turning on your fan instead of air-con.....energy saving light bulb.
Well... I think the most fundamental stuff you can contribute to the environment is by throwing your rubbish into the rubbish bin. Do not litter.
This is the reason why chewing gum is not allowed in Singapore. Long ago, chewing gum was allowed but people started littering them. After chewing for minutes, they would spit out the gum on the floor. Worst of all, they spit on chairs and tables. When people are careless, they would step on it and omg... it's so sticky. We shouldn't care only about ourselves. We should care about others too.
Also, pet lovers..... I don't have to say it out....you know what I mean. If you own a pet then you are responsible for it. Do not ignore it.... kindly take a plastic bag to pick it up and throw it away.
Let's talk about other stuff.......
Hey hi there, what's your name?
Erm.... Crystine?
How do you pronounce it?
Yes, I am talking about unique names here. Recently I found out that people are having more unique western names. It's so unique that you barely get to see this name at all. My brother's name is Riyan. Some of you may have heard it before. But it's a pretty unique name still. Most people can't pronounce my brother's name correctly. You don't pronounce it as Ryan. You pronounce it as Ri-yan. It has 2 syllabus. Another name close to it is Raiyan. Seen it before? Weird isn't it...
There is a difference between unique and weird. Long ago, people are called tan ah gao... tan ah jiao. These are what we known as weird names... tan represent the surname. Ah gao means dog and ah jiao means bird. Some names have meaning.... for example, 'yu' means jade. Tom,Harry,David... these are common names we may get to hear daily. But are unique names cool or strange? It depends.... People like western name because it's short and nice. But people don't want common stuff anymore... they want names that are special... to make that child a special one.
I was reading the newspaper today and it says that 30% of maids hired by Singaporeans are sent back within 2 months. This is because the performance of the maid did not meet the expectations of the employer. Well... there are 2 types of maids in general. Filipino and Indonesian. I used to have maid when I was young. Singaporean hire maid for some reasons. One of the main reason is because both parents are working. They have no time to take care of their baby....pet.... and the house chore. Long ago, there are cases of maid abuse. It's said that employers are abusing the maids. When the maid did something wrong, some employers will torture the maid. But that was in the past. Currently, things are happening the opposite ways. It's the maid who is abusing the employers. There are several cases reported of maids abusing babies. When parents went out to work, the maid is supposed to take care of the baby with care and love. However, as maids are humans who have feelings too, some choose to abuse them. Babies are hard to take care of.... this is due to the fact that when babies want something, all he do is cry...cry cry cry.... when he is hungry, he will cry. When his diaper is wet, he will cry. But we can't blame him.... he don't know how to speak any language yet. I remember there was this mother who saw her baby full of bruises. She decided to install a camera in her house to see her baby when she is at work. To her surprise, she saw the maid pinching and beating up the baby...
Ouch...that's painful...
Another reason is language differences. People from Philippine or Indonesia understand their own language only. To be a maid, they must sit for an English language examination. However, passing the test doesn't mean that they understand English fully. Some Singaporeans....especially the elderly, don't understand English. They only understand mandarin or some dialect such as Hokkien. So sometimes... communicating with each other can be difficult. If the maid don't understand what the employer want then she can't do what the employer want. On the other hand, if the employer can't tell what she want the maid to do then she can't command the maid to do things like cleaning the tables.
Last but not least, having a maid can be fun. We get to exchange our culture. We get to know the history of their country and we also get to know other language. That's how I learn Indonesian's language.
Yesterday night I was waiting at a bus-stop for bus 113 to arrive so that I can go home. A vehicle drove in and parked at the bus-stop. 2 men got off the car and they started sweeping those leaves on the ground. It was around 11pm at that point in time.... I am amazed.... it's pretty hardworking for them to work at this timing. They must be hired by the government to keep our environment clean. But thinking back, I kinda think that it's useless.
You see.... everywhere you go, you see leaves falling on the ground. You see more leaves on the ground during rainy days. Is it possible to throw all the fallen leaves away? I don't think so.
They can sweep for a day.....a week.... or even a month. But the leaves will keep falling.
However, it's still their job to gather and discard those leaves. To clean up as many as they can.... that's their purpose.
Speaking of environment, are you saving the earth? Everyone has a part to play in saving the environment. There are many ways you can save the environment. For example, turning on your fan instead of air-con.....energy saving light bulb.
Well... I think the most fundamental stuff you can contribute to the environment is by throwing your rubbish into the rubbish bin. Do not litter.
This is the reason why chewing gum is not allowed in Singapore. Long ago, chewing gum was allowed but people started littering them. After chewing for minutes, they would spit out the gum on the floor. Worst of all, they spit on chairs and tables. When people are careless, they would step on it and omg... it's so sticky. We shouldn't care only about ourselves. We should care about others too.
Also, pet lovers..... I don't have to say it out....you know what I mean. If you own a pet then you are responsible for it. Do not ignore it.... kindly take a plastic bag to pick it up and throw it away.
Let's talk about other stuff.......
Hey hi there, what's your name?
Erm.... Crystine?
How do you pronounce it?
Yes, I am talking about unique names here. Recently I found out that people are having more unique western names. It's so unique that you barely get to see this name at all. My brother's name is Riyan. Some of you may have heard it before. But it's a pretty unique name still. Most people can't pronounce my brother's name correctly. You don't pronounce it as Ryan. You pronounce it as Ri-yan. It has 2 syllabus. Another name close to it is Raiyan. Seen it before? Weird isn't it...
There is a difference between unique and weird. Long ago, people are called tan ah gao... tan ah jiao. These are what we known as weird names... tan represent the surname. Ah gao means dog and ah jiao means bird. Some names have meaning.... for example, 'yu' means jade. Tom,Harry,David... these are common names we may get to hear daily. But are unique names cool or strange? It depends.... People like western name because it's short and nice. But people don't want common stuff anymore... they want names that are special... to make that child a special one.
I was reading the newspaper today and it says that 30% of maids hired by Singaporeans are sent back within 2 months. This is because the performance of the maid did not meet the expectations of the employer. Well... there are 2 types of maids in general. Filipino and Indonesian. I used to have maid when I was young. Singaporean hire maid for some reasons. One of the main reason is because both parents are working. They have no time to take care of their baby....pet.... and the house chore. Long ago, there are cases of maid abuse. It's said that employers are abusing the maids. When the maid did something wrong, some employers will torture the maid. But that was in the past. Currently, things are happening the opposite ways. It's the maid who is abusing the employers. There are several cases reported of maids abusing babies. When parents went out to work, the maid is supposed to take care of the baby with care and love. However, as maids are humans who have feelings too, some choose to abuse them. Babies are hard to take care of.... this is due to the fact that when babies want something, all he do is cry...cry cry cry.... when he is hungry, he will cry. When his diaper is wet, he will cry. But we can't blame him.... he don't know how to speak any language yet. I remember there was this mother who saw her baby full of bruises. She decided to install a camera in her house to see her baby when she is at work. To her surprise, she saw the maid pinching and beating up the baby...
Ouch...that's painful...
Another reason is language differences. People from Philippine or Indonesia understand their own language only. To be a maid, they must sit for an English language examination. However, passing the test doesn't mean that they understand English fully. Some Singaporeans....especially the elderly, don't understand English. They only understand mandarin or some dialect such as Hokkien. So sometimes... communicating with each other can be difficult. If the maid don't understand what the employer want then she can't do what the employer want. On the other hand, if the employer can't tell what she want the maid to do then she can't command the maid to do things like cleaning the tables.
Last but not least, having a maid can be fun. We get to exchange our culture. We get to know the history of their country and we also get to know other language. That's how I learn Indonesian's language.
21 March 2010
21/3
Hmm... got to go out soon.... sigh.... recently I have been finding champagne... I wanna know how it taste like... I went to a few supermarkets to find it but can't seem to find one.
Hmm.... lol no longer stands for laugh out loud. It stand for lots of love. :) So feel free to say lol when you chat with your friends... haha.
It's kinda weird when you are having long holiday.... you feel bored and you hope to go to school. But when school start, you hope for holiday....
Strange huh? Imagine you are going to study for 2 hours. You studied 5 chapters and realise that only 30 mins have passed. Why do time passes so slow?
Imagine you are going to play a computer game for 2 hours. You completed 5 stages and realise that 1 hour and 30 mins have passed. Why do time passes so fast?
Is time slow or fast? haha... time is always the same..... an hour will always be 60 mins will always be 3600 seconds. It's just your psychology effect that affected you. When you are doing something that you dislike...such as studying,working.... you will find that time is passing so slow. But when you are doing something that you enjoy... such as playing... chatting.... you will find that time is passing so fast.
Everyone of us have 24 hours in a day. You can sleep....eat....play....work. But no matter what, you will still have 24 hours in a day only.
So..... do you wanna spend your time wisely or are you gonna waste your time? That's the question.... how will you spend your time.
Hmm.... lol no longer stands for laugh out loud. It stand for lots of love. :) So feel free to say lol when you chat with your friends... haha.
It's kinda weird when you are having long holiday.... you feel bored and you hope to go to school. But when school start, you hope for holiday....
Strange huh? Imagine you are going to study for 2 hours. You studied 5 chapters and realise that only 30 mins have passed. Why do time passes so slow?
Imagine you are going to play a computer game for 2 hours. You completed 5 stages and realise that 1 hour and 30 mins have passed. Why do time passes so fast?
Is time slow or fast? haha... time is always the same..... an hour will always be 60 mins will always be 3600 seconds. It's just your psychology effect that affected you. When you are doing something that you dislike...such as studying,working.... you will find that time is passing so slow. But when you are doing something that you enjoy... such as playing... chatting.... you will find that time is passing so fast.
Everyone of us have 24 hours in a day. You can sleep....eat....play....work. But no matter what, you will still have 24 hours in a day only.
So..... do you wanna spend your time wisely or are you gonna waste your time? That's the question.... how will you spend your time.
20 March 2010
20/3
Hmm... time passes so fast... it's weekend again. Very soon, primary and secondary school students have to study again... Fortunately... I am still on holiday... muahahaha *evil laughter*.
Oh well, today I went to Singapore indoor stadium to watch Disney on ice. It isn't really nice but it isn't really that bad. When I sat down, I was thinking... where is the ice? Isn't this Disney on ice? After the show begin, I realise that there are ice on the ground... just that it's a thin layer. What caught my attention was the animatronics. Pretty cool.
I miss my 한국어 선생님. lol... 감사합니다.
Hmm... I don't really have any interesting stuff to share today....
Oh erm... if anyone of you interested in learning korean language, please feel free to contact me. I can intro you an awesome school.
잘자. :)
Oh well, today I went to Singapore indoor stadium to watch Disney on ice. It isn't really nice but it isn't really that bad. When I sat down, I was thinking... where is the ice? Isn't this Disney on ice? After the show begin, I realise that there are ice on the ground... just that it's a thin layer. What caught my attention was the animatronics. Pretty cool.
I miss my 한국어 선생님. lol... 감사합니다.
Hmm... I don't really have any interesting stuff to share today....
Oh erm... if anyone of you interested in learning korean language, please feel free to contact me. I can intro you an awesome school.
잘자. :)
19 March 2010
19/3
Hmm..... every time when I blog... I will smile... that's because I don't know what is a blog.LOL.... I created this blog of mine a few months ago but I don't really know what is a blog about. Is it for someone to write about his life? What kind of stuff should I write on my blog? Are blogs for writers to write or is it for readers to read?
:o Live soccer match on channel 5.
Hmm... I was looking at my facebook videos and I found out that I missed out a few videos... haha... I haven't upload my ground moves and king tut... and that's just popping.
When you are bored... what will you normally do to burn your time off?
Hmm.... perhaps play some games... chat with someone.... watch television... go out shopping.... or eat....
Oh yes... speaking of eating... everyone of us eat food daily. We eat during breakfast...lunch...dinner and sometimes, supper. Imagine you walked in a foodcourt. You found a seat and you start to ponder what do you wanna eat today.
Do you wanna eat chicken rice? Erm... no thanks.. I just ate it yesterday.
Do you wanna eat muslim food? Erm... I am kinda bored eating that already.
Oh do you wanna eat Japanese or Korean cuisine? Erm... it's kinda expensive and I don't really like eating it.
Hey...how about leaving this foodcourt to find some fast food restaurant? Erm... nah... Just had one this afternoon...
You see... people want good food.. they want delicious food... but recently I found out that Singaporeans are getting tired of the food that they ate daily. Char kway tiao.... fried mee... almost all of the food available in the foodcourt you have ate before... You want something new.. you want something special... you want something that can make you wanna have the 2nd plate. But you just can't seem to find it...
Just by thinking what you wanna eat, you have already wasted 10 minutes of your precious time. Worst of all, after thinking for 10 mins, you decided to eat chicken rice again.
I find that I have been eating the same food quite often. Where are all the special food that I seldom eat?
Food is different from technology. We can have new technology within a short period of time but we seldom see new food...even within a long period of time. If you were to go to McDonald... how many new stuff do you see? How often do they have new stuff? It's kinda seldom... all you see is burger....coke... french fries....ice-cream. How can we solve this food problem?
Speaking of McDonald... I find that not every McDonald are the same. McDonald in Japan doesn't have chili sauce because they don't eat chili at all. I remember I was at McDonald of Queensway shopping mall and my auntie wanted to buy a strawberry milkshake. Guess what? They doesn't have it... wtf? A McDonald without milkshake? That's ridiculous.
Hmm... after talking about food, you must be hungry now... You will then go to a foodcourt...and found out that what I have been saying... is happening on you exactly. haha.
:o Live soccer match on channel 5.
Hmm... I was looking at my facebook videos and I found out that I missed out a few videos... haha... I haven't upload my ground moves and king tut... and that's just popping.
When you are bored... what will you normally do to burn your time off?
Hmm.... perhaps play some games... chat with someone.... watch television... go out shopping.... or eat....
Oh yes... speaking of eating... everyone of us eat food daily. We eat during breakfast...lunch...dinner and sometimes, supper. Imagine you walked in a foodcourt. You found a seat and you start to ponder what do you wanna eat today.
Do you wanna eat chicken rice? Erm... no thanks.. I just ate it yesterday.
Do you wanna eat muslim food? Erm... I am kinda bored eating that already.
Oh do you wanna eat Japanese or Korean cuisine? Erm... it's kinda expensive and I don't really like eating it.
Hey...how about leaving this foodcourt to find some fast food restaurant? Erm... nah... Just had one this afternoon...
You see... people want good food.. they want delicious food... but recently I found out that Singaporeans are getting tired of the food that they ate daily. Char kway tiao.... fried mee... almost all of the food available in the foodcourt you have ate before... You want something new.. you want something special... you want something that can make you wanna have the 2nd plate. But you just can't seem to find it...
Just by thinking what you wanna eat, you have already wasted 10 minutes of your precious time. Worst of all, after thinking for 10 mins, you decided to eat chicken rice again.
I find that I have been eating the same food quite often. Where are all the special food that I seldom eat?
Food is different from technology. We can have new technology within a short period of time but we seldom see new food...even within a long period of time. If you were to go to McDonald... how many new stuff do you see? How often do they have new stuff? It's kinda seldom... all you see is burger....coke... french fries....ice-cream. How can we solve this food problem?
Speaking of McDonald... I find that not every McDonald are the same. McDonald in Japan doesn't have chili sauce because they don't eat chili at all. I remember I was at McDonald of Queensway shopping mall and my auntie wanted to buy a strawberry milkshake. Guess what? They doesn't have it... wtf? A McDonald without milkshake? That's ridiculous.
Hmm... after talking about food, you must be hungry now... You will then go to a foodcourt...and found out that what I have been saying... is happening on you exactly. haha.
18/3
Hmm.. I didn't blog yesterday as I wasn't feeling well. Kinda tired too. Yesterday me and my bff went to Junction 8 to meet our sec sch teacher(Mr.Tan) . Before that I drank....but I am not drunk..haha... so my face was red(as usual) when I saw my teacher. We went to Haagen Dazs after that to eat and chat. After eating we sat there as if it's our house and refuse to leave.LOL... so the waitress kept refilling the drinks for us while we continue chatting about our life. Those red patch on my face spread to my hands and I was pretty surprised because I have never seen anything like this before. A short while later we left to shop. Played some games too. Soon, those red patch start to disappear.
We went to eat dinner and took bus 55 to go Hougang plaza to play some computer games. That's when I start to feel unwell...haha... went home to rest.
Long ago several strangers added me as friend on msn. From young, our parents taught us not to talk to strangers. But I am a bad boy... I don't wanna listen to them.. because I feel that if you wanna make new friends, you got to talk to strangers first. So I accepted their friend request but soon, I regretted. They started to call me to go to a website to chat with them. I refused and deleted them as friend. Today I woke up and I signed in my msn to check out who's online. Immediately someone talked to me. It was one of the strangers that I added long ago. I think I forgot to delete this one. The first sentence that she said to me was 'Hey, watch me naked at www.xyz.com'. I didn't reply her...just blocked and deleted her.LOL... What a mad girl...
I went to Jurong point today... it was a long trip. I took bus 25 to Ang mo kio and take mrt to Jurong East and transfer to the green line to boon lay. I went there with my family. After shopping for several hours, I sense something weird.
No matter which shopping mall you go to, you will see people. To make things simple, I am referring to teenagers and parents. I was finding for teenagers within my age.... I was looking at who are the people that teenagers of my age go out with. I see friends..... girlfriend..... friends.....girlfriend.... friends....girlfriend.... Then I start to look at myself.... I am with my mother..... I looked at everywhere in that shopping mall... No teenager of my age with parents shopping together... So what does this mean? Well.. look like there is a shift... a shift in teenager's behavior. They are barely going out with their parents. Perhaps once in a blue moon. So I start to wonder why?
I am a teenager too. I believe the main reason is because of freedom. Freedom is just a word... but it can change a person completely. Teenagers want freedom.. they want freedom to do things that they wanna do. They want no one to stop them...because they believe that they are no longer kids anymore. They wanna show their true self. A teenager will show his true self when he is hanging out with his friends.
I was wondering... does the problem lies on we teenagers or does it lies on the adults? The adults are worried that we will learn bad things from our friends. That's why some of us have curfew that state that you have to reach home before 11pm. We know it's for our own good. But sometimes.. we find them irritating. To our parent, we are just kids no matter how big we are. I find that teenagers are not communicating with parents nowadays... Perhaps because there is nothing much to talk about... our parents don't understand what we want... they don't understand what are we thinking... we don't understand why must they interfere with things that they shouldn't interfere. But looking at a different angle, how many of us understand our parent? Instead of ignoring them, how many of us have ever tried to talk to them?
One thing I find it true is that teenagers still don't understand how hard it is to earn money. Teenagers like me have pocket money. We tend to buy things that we want but don't need it. I worked part-time before. My pay was $7.50 per hour. After working for a month, I found out that my pay was a thousand dollar. I was pretty happy... it's the first time I earn money.. I find that hey... why did my mum lie to me that money is hard to earn? Look mum... I can earn a thousand dollar in just 1 month..... but soon I realise that I am wrong... I agree with the old saying that it takes a month to save but take 1 day to spend. With the money I earned, I started buying things that I don't need... to satisfy my wants. When I look back, I can't believe that I have spent so much... when our parents say that money is hard to earn... you can't just count the money that you earn. You must include those expenses that you are going to spend too.
Wants are different from our needs. We need water and food. We need house to stay. Our wants tend to be those luxury stuff like car... jewellery. We tend to be satisfied when we satisfy our want.
Hmm.. recently I have been staying at home if possible. I tend to reject if my mum ask me to go out with her.. lol... sorry mum... but I got an important stuff to do. Everyday I have been waiting.. I have been staring at my computer screen... waiting for my gf to come online in msn. Sigh... our relationship is a little hard to maintain.... that's because we are living in different country. When I am busy studying... she is on holiday... she will stay at home... turn on her computer and wait for me to online as well. Sometimes when I am on holiday, she will be the one busy studying... So the time we have chatting together is getting lesser because it's already 11pm when we start chatting.. she got school tomorrow so she got to go at 12am.Sometimes when she is too tired... she won't come online at all. In a relationship, we tend to know when to hang on and when to give up. But now.. I don't know should I give up or hang on. It's normal for couples to quarrel and break up... but then after cooling down, both parties will patch up again. We have been fighting for this love... we met lots of obstacles but manage to overcome it. We trust each other that we won't cheat on each other. But sometimes... I just think that I am not good enough to be her bf. It's kinda painful especially when I need my gf's shoulder and she isn't here beside me. I feel like.... there is a string between us... this string is getting longer and longer... and it's gonna break into 2 one day... I don't want it to break. But I don't know how to make it shorter. I don't know why but I feel insecure.......unstable. Fate brought us together.. fate already gave me a chance. Fate let me met her and even let her be mine... that's more than what I can wish for. But.... I gotta rely on myself this time... I gotta change my life too... I wanna fight.... be it for my happiness...future....or for lovely.
We went to eat dinner and took bus 55 to go Hougang plaza to play some computer games. That's when I start to feel unwell...haha... went home to rest.
Long ago several strangers added me as friend on msn. From young, our parents taught us not to talk to strangers. But I am a bad boy... I don't wanna listen to them.. because I feel that if you wanna make new friends, you got to talk to strangers first. So I accepted their friend request but soon, I regretted. They started to call me to go to a website to chat with them. I refused and deleted them as friend. Today I woke up and I signed in my msn to check out who's online. Immediately someone talked to me. It was one of the strangers that I added long ago. I think I forgot to delete this one. The first sentence that she said to me was 'Hey, watch me naked at www.xyz.com'. I didn't reply her...just blocked and deleted her.LOL... What a mad girl...
I went to Jurong point today... it was a long trip. I took bus 25 to Ang mo kio and take mrt to Jurong East and transfer to the green line to boon lay. I went there with my family. After shopping for several hours, I sense something weird.
No matter which shopping mall you go to, you will see people. To make things simple, I am referring to teenagers and parents. I was finding for teenagers within my age.... I was looking at who are the people that teenagers of my age go out with. I see friends..... girlfriend..... friends.....girlfriend.... friends....girlfriend.... Then I start to look at myself.... I am with my mother..... I looked at everywhere in that shopping mall... No teenager of my age with parents shopping together... So what does this mean? Well.. look like there is a shift... a shift in teenager's behavior. They are barely going out with their parents. Perhaps once in a blue moon. So I start to wonder why?
I am a teenager too. I believe the main reason is because of freedom. Freedom is just a word... but it can change a person completely. Teenagers want freedom.. they want freedom to do things that they wanna do. They want no one to stop them...because they believe that they are no longer kids anymore. They wanna show their true self. A teenager will show his true self when he is hanging out with his friends.
I was wondering... does the problem lies on we teenagers or does it lies on the adults? The adults are worried that we will learn bad things from our friends. That's why some of us have curfew that state that you have to reach home before 11pm. We know it's for our own good. But sometimes.. we find them irritating. To our parent, we are just kids no matter how big we are. I find that teenagers are not communicating with parents nowadays... Perhaps because there is nothing much to talk about... our parents don't understand what we want... they don't understand what are we thinking... we don't understand why must they interfere with things that they shouldn't interfere. But looking at a different angle, how many of us understand our parent? Instead of ignoring them, how many of us have ever tried to talk to them?
One thing I find it true is that teenagers still don't understand how hard it is to earn money. Teenagers like me have pocket money. We tend to buy things that we want but don't need it. I worked part-time before. My pay was $7.50 per hour. After working for a month, I found out that my pay was a thousand dollar. I was pretty happy... it's the first time I earn money.. I find that hey... why did my mum lie to me that money is hard to earn? Look mum... I can earn a thousand dollar in just 1 month..... but soon I realise that I am wrong... I agree with the old saying that it takes a month to save but take 1 day to spend. With the money I earned, I started buying things that I don't need... to satisfy my wants. When I look back, I can't believe that I have spent so much... when our parents say that money is hard to earn... you can't just count the money that you earn. You must include those expenses that you are going to spend too.
Wants are different from our needs. We need water and food. We need house to stay. Our wants tend to be those luxury stuff like car... jewellery. We tend to be satisfied when we satisfy our want.
Hmm.. recently I have been staying at home if possible. I tend to reject if my mum ask me to go out with her.. lol... sorry mum... but I got an important stuff to do. Everyday I have been waiting.. I have been staring at my computer screen... waiting for my gf to come online in msn. Sigh... our relationship is a little hard to maintain.... that's because we are living in different country. When I am busy studying... she is on holiday... she will stay at home... turn on her computer and wait for me to online as well. Sometimes when I am on holiday, she will be the one busy studying... So the time we have chatting together is getting lesser because it's already 11pm when we start chatting.. she got school tomorrow so she got to go at 12am.Sometimes when she is too tired... she won't come online at all. In a relationship, we tend to know when to hang on and when to give up. But now.. I don't know should I give up or hang on. It's normal for couples to quarrel and break up... but then after cooling down, both parties will patch up again. We have been fighting for this love... we met lots of obstacles but manage to overcome it. We trust each other that we won't cheat on each other. But sometimes... I just think that I am not good enough to be her bf. It's kinda painful especially when I need my gf's shoulder and she isn't here beside me. I feel like.... there is a string between us... this string is getting longer and longer... and it's gonna break into 2 one day... I don't want it to break. But I don't know how to make it shorter. I don't know why but I feel insecure.......unstable. Fate brought us together.. fate already gave me a chance. Fate let me met her and even let her be mine... that's more than what I can wish for. But.... I gotta rely on myself this time... I gotta change my life too... I wanna fight.... be it for my happiness...future....or for lovely.
16 March 2010
16/3
ju-on
WARNING! Do not click on the link above if the time now is after 10pm. I am afraid you will have nightmare after seeing that face too. However, if you seriously wanna watch the video and you are not afraid, feel free to watch the video. The face will appear at the 5th minute plus. It's not a sudden pop-out thingy to scare you.
Hmm... I finally found it... I found her... I found her face... I found her bloody face...that scariest face I have ever seen. I remembered after seeing this face, I couldn't sleep at all.. My heart was filled with fear...
Ju-on is a korean word. In English, we call it 'the curse'. There is a movie called the grudge. The story and characters in it are similar to ju-on. Recently there is also a Japanese version of ju-on. But I still prefer the original version. The one that freaked me out.
The story was fantastic. A schoolgirl got killed by a ghost. Her jawbone was missing... but the interesting part is that she manage to survive. She was bleeding badly. Every part of her body was bleeding... she went home after that. She live in those double story house. So when she came back, her mother was busy talking on the phone in the kitchen. She know someone is back but don't know who. So this girl walked slowly up the stairs. Her mother wanted to see who is back but saw blood on the floor... dripping and dripping... she followed that stranger up the stairs and asked her who is she. She turned around and her mum realise that it's her daughter.. but something tell me that this girl ain't her daughter. Because she killed her mother after that.
Well.. ju-on is an interesting movie.. there are 3 parts to it. Ju-on 1, ju-on 2 and ju-on 2 the final.
But hmm.. no matter how scary it is.. no matter how interesting the movie is, it's just a show after all. LOL...haha...
Let's talk about something else. I believe this issue that I am gonna talk about is something serious that the government find it hard to solve the problem too.
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Construction workers from Bangladesh, hotel staff from the Philippines, waitresses from China, shipyard welders from Myanmar, technology professionals from India. This sound familiar. Yes, I am talking about foreigners living in Singapore.
I am a Singapore(SG) citizen but I can guarantee that I won't be bias against Singaporean.
Let's start by talking about threat. A threat that Singaporeans are worrying about. A threat that our government must do something to solve it. This threat is what we known as the competition for jobs. I must agree that for the past few years, foreigners who occupy Singaporean's job have increased.
Singapore is a very small country. We are one of the smallest country in the world. With a population of approximately 5 million people, 30% of the population are foreigners. Singaporeans have been complaining that the foreigners are occupying jobs that are supposed to be ours. I have to agree with them.
Basically, the main reason why so many foreigners are coming to Singapore is because of the advantages of working here. Firstly, their salary is high. If you are standing in a Singaporean's point of view, their salary will be low. But if you try to put yourself in their shoe, their salary working here is definitely much more higher than the salary working in their own country. Let's compare SG and China. The exchange rate is 1:5. The currency in China is rmb. So S$1= 5rmb. Let's assume their salary in SG is S$400 per month. This is equivalent to 2,000rmb. Foreigners are humans too. They need money to buy food and contribute to their family too. So we seriously can't blame them for occupying our job as they would definitely choose to work in an environment where there is higher pay.
Secondly, Singapore is a safe country. In terms of safety, I am sure SG is one of the safest country. Let's not talk about terrorism. Let's talk about natural disaster. Unlike Indonesia, SG doesn't have flood. Unlike India, SG doesn't have strong drought. Unlike China, SG doesn't have strong earthquake. When Indonesia is strike by earthquake with a magnitude of 6.0, it does affect SG but come on... the strength of the earthquake is so weak that we only can feel the vibration. Nothing more than that.
Would you choose to work in a place where the salary is low and it's only 50% that you are safe or would you rather choose to work in a place where the salary is high and it's 99% that you are safe? Common sense tell us that everyone will choose the latter. That's it! That's why more and more foreigners in Asia are coming to work in SG.
We must face the fact that we need foreigners to work for us. As I said before, Singapore is just a small country. We need more foreign talents to survive. Without foreign talent, would Singapore win so many medals in the Beijing olympic game? Without Tao Li, would Singapore set world record for swimming?
Let's face the truth.. without them, we won't. The government said this before and we can't blame the government for it. They have tried their best to help SG. Government have been finding ways for us to live a better life too... it's just that when they help us, we say thank you and we forget about it. But when government did something that the citizens dislike, we complain and we will never forget it. The government have budget to spend on various matters such as housing etc. We can't expect the government to help us forever too.
Richard's law: Human must depend on himself to survive.
Singaporeans must also face the fact that sometimes our demand is too high. We expect a sales manager to have a basic pay of S$4,000. Including sales commission, our salary that we expect would be S$5,000 and above. But please look at yourself before you start to demand. Look at your qualifications.. you may have a 'O' level certificate. You may have a diploma.. or a degree. But people out there have PhD. They have master degree with first class honors. They have MBA (A certificate that I wanna have). If companies out there reject a university graduate when he ask for a pay of $4,000 per month, what makes you think that the company will accept you when your qualifications are worse than them?
It's not really experience that they are looking for. They are looking for skills.. they are looking for people with the ability to make profits for the company.
Staff salary is considered an expense to the company.When salary increase, expense will increase and assuming revenue is constant, profit will decrease. All companies in this world wanna make profit. No one is so stupid to wish for a loss.
And don't forget.. those foreigners again... they can accept much more lower pay than us. The company offer them S$1,500 per month and they are willing to accept it. To us, our reaction will be like... WTF? Only S$1,500 per month for a sales manager? NO WAY... I will never take up this kind of job. True... the pay is seriously too low. But because we Singaporeans refuse to take it, it's fair to give the job to foreigners. The company need to survive. If no local people want it, they have to give it to someone else. That's why we can't blame the foreigners or government.
A very good example is the construction workers in SG. Do you see Singaporeans working in the construction industry? No..you don't. Why? Everywhere you go, you will only see the Indians and China guys working as construction workers. These are jobs that Singaporeans refuse to take up. So who can we blame?
We should blame our self.
Our market is very small... so small that no businessman in SG can survive. That's why businessman in SG are migrating or doing business overseas. Recently I saw a report saying companies in New Zealand are finding Singaporeans as workers. Cool... the western people are inviting Asians to work there.
But what happen if a report 5 years later shows that the Asians are occupying too many jobs in the western country? LOL... Just joking...
Hmm.. I am not a storyteller. I am not a debater. I am just a student with no power. I always believe that if you wanna survive in this world, you got to make changes. What kind of change??? It depend. If you are a company selling products.. you can change the product by thinking of innovative or creative ways. You have to beat your competitors before they beat you. Be like President Obama. Be positive. Never say die.
We Singaporeans will never die because of too many foreigners but we will die if we still continue to demand like before. It's time to make changes. It's time to step out of this world and proof to others that you are not useless. It's time to show others what you are made of and tell them that they have underestimated you. It's time to change your fear into your strength. It's time to make use of your strength and opportunity to be successful. It's time to get rid of your weaknesses and threats by saying 'YES, we can'. It's time for you to get up and fight for your own future. IT'S TIME.... for you to change your life.
WARNING! Do not click on the link above if the time now is after 10pm. I am afraid you will have nightmare after seeing that face too. However, if you seriously wanna watch the video and you are not afraid, feel free to watch the video. The face will appear at the 5th minute plus. It's not a sudden pop-out thingy to scare you.
Hmm... I finally found it... I found her... I found her face... I found her bloody face...that scariest face I have ever seen. I remembered after seeing this face, I couldn't sleep at all.. My heart was filled with fear...
Ju-on is a korean word. In English, we call it 'the curse'. There is a movie called the grudge. The story and characters in it are similar to ju-on. Recently there is also a Japanese version of ju-on. But I still prefer the original version. The one that freaked me out.
The story was fantastic. A schoolgirl got killed by a ghost. Her jawbone was missing... but the interesting part is that she manage to survive. She was bleeding badly. Every part of her body was bleeding... she went home after that. She live in those double story house. So when she came back, her mother was busy talking on the phone in the kitchen. She know someone is back but don't know who. So this girl walked slowly up the stairs. Her mother wanted to see who is back but saw blood on the floor... dripping and dripping... she followed that stranger up the stairs and asked her who is she. She turned around and her mum realise that it's her daughter.. but something tell me that this girl ain't her daughter. Because she killed her mother after that.
Well.. ju-on is an interesting movie.. there are 3 parts to it. Ju-on 1, ju-on 2 and ju-on 2 the final.
But hmm.. no matter how scary it is.. no matter how interesting the movie is, it's just a show after all. LOL...haha...
Let's talk about something else. I believe this issue that I am gonna talk about is something serious that the government find it hard to solve the problem too.
Click me
Construction workers from Bangladesh, hotel staff from the Philippines, waitresses from China, shipyard welders from Myanmar, technology professionals from India. This sound familiar. Yes, I am talking about foreigners living in Singapore.
I am a Singapore(SG) citizen but I can guarantee that I won't be bias against Singaporean.
Let's start by talking about threat. A threat that Singaporeans are worrying about. A threat that our government must do something to solve it. This threat is what we known as the competition for jobs. I must agree that for the past few years, foreigners who occupy Singaporean's job have increased.
Singapore is a very small country. We are one of the smallest country in the world. With a population of approximately 5 million people, 30% of the population are foreigners. Singaporeans have been complaining that the foreigners are occupying jobs that are supposed to be ours. I have to agree with them.
Basically, the main reason why so many foreigners are coming to Singapore is because of the advantages of working here. Firstly, their salary is high. If you are standing in a Singaporean's point of view, their salary will be low. But if you try to put yourself in their shoe, their salary working here is definitely much more higher than the salary working in their own country. Let's compare SG and China. The exchange rate is 1:5. The currency in China is rmb. So S$1= 5rmb. Let's assume their salary in SG is S$400 per month. This is equivalent to 2,000rmb. Foreigners are humans too. They need money to buy food and contribute to their family too. So we seriously can't blame them for occupying our job as they would definitely choose to work in an environment where there is higher pay.
Secondly, Singapore is a safe country. In terms of safety, I am sure SG is one of the safest country. Let's not talk about terrorism. Let's talk about natural disaster. Unlike Indonesia, SG doesn't have flood. Unlike India, SG doesn't have strong drought. Unlike China, SG doesn't have strong earthquake. When Indonesia is strike by earthquake with a magnitude of 6.0, it does affect SG but come on... the strength of the earthquake is so weak that we only can feel the vibration. Nothing more than that.
Would you choose to work in a place where the salary is low and it's only 50% that you are safe or would you rather choose to work in a place where the salary is high and it's 99% that you are safe? Common sense tell us that everyone will choose the latter. That's it! That's why more and more foreigners in Asia are coming to work in SG.
We must face the fact that we need foreigners to work for us. As I said before, Singapore is just a small country. We need more foreign talents to survive. Without foreign talent, would Singapore win so many medals in the Beijing olympic game? Without Tao Li, would Singapore set world record for swimming?
Let's face the truth.. without them, we won't. The government said this before and we can't blame the government for it. They have tried their best to help SG. Government have been finding ways for us to live a better life too... it's just that when they help us, we say thank you and we forget about it. But when government did something that the citizens dislike, we complain and we will never forget it. The government have budget to spend on various matters such as housing etc. We can't expect the government to help us forever too.
Richard's law: Human must depend on himself to survive.
Singaporeans must also face the fact that sometimes our demand is too high. We expect a sales manager to have a basic pay of S$4,000. Including sales commission, our salary that we expect would be S$5,000 and above. But please look at yourself before you start to demand. Look at your qualifications.. you may have a 'O' level certificate. You may have a diploma.. or a degree. But people out there have PhD. They have master degree with first class honors. They have MBA (A certificate that I wanna have). If companies out there reject a university graduate when he ask for a pay of $4,000 per month, what makes you think that the company will accept you when your qualifications are worse than them?
It's not really experience that they are looking for. They are looking for skills.. they are looking for people with the ability to make profits for the company.
Staff salary is considered an expense to the company.When salary increase, expense will increase and assuming revenue is constant, profit will decrease. All companies in this world wanna make profit. No one is so stupid to wish for a loss.
And don't forget.. those foreigners again... they can accept much more lower pay than us. The company offer them S$1,500 per month and they are willing to accept it. To us, our reaction will be like... WTF? Only S$1,500 per month for a sales manager? NO WAY... I will never take up this kind of job. True... the pay is seriously too low. But because we Singaporeans refuse to take it, it's fair to give the job to foreigners. The company need to survive. If no local people want it, they have to give it to someone else. That's why we can't blame the foreigners or government.
A very good example is the construction workers in SG. Do you see Singaporeans working in the construction industry? No..you don't. Why? Everywhere you go, you will only see the Indians and China guys working as construction workers. These are jobs that Singaporeans refuse to take up. So who can we blame?
We should blame our self.
Our market is very small... so small that no businessman in SG can survive. That's why businessman in SG are migrating or doing business overseas. Recently I saw a report saying companies in New Zealand are finding Singaporeans as workers. Cool... the western people are inviting Asians to work there.
But what happen if a report 5 years later shows that the Asians are occupying too many jobs in the western country? LOL... Just joking...
Hmm.. I am not a storyteller. I am not a debater. I am just a student with no power. I always believe that if you wanna survive in this world, you got to make changes. What kind of change??? It depend. If you are a company selling products.. you can change the product by thinking of innovative or creative ways. You have to beat your competitors before they beat you. Be like President Obama. Be positive. Never say die.
We Singaporeans will never die because of too many foreigners but we will die if we still continue to demand like before. It's time to make changes. It's time to step out of this world and proof to others that you are not useless. It's time to show others what you are made of and tell them that they have underestimated you. It's time to change your fear into your strength. It's time to make use of your strength and opportunity to be successful. It's time to get rid of your weaknesses and threats by saying 'YES, we can'. It's time for you to get up and fight for your own future. IT'S TIME.... for you to change your life.
15 March 2010
15/3
Hmm.. beckham
Beckham suffered a ruptured Achilles tendon injury. He may not play in the world cup this year. But I believe in miracle.. I believe god will bless him. I wanna watch England vs Portugal again. Beckham vs Christiano Ronaldo.
Recently Rooney is getting good in manchester united. I just hope he can remain his standard in world cup too. I remembered Rooney getting a red card in world cup 2006. What a waste...
England fought with Portugal in 2006 world cup. Beckham injured himself somewhere near half-time and he was upset that he can't play the game. The result was a draw and they went on to penalty kick. Portugal won.
Sigh... world cup 2010 is in June. I wish I can watch it but my exam will be in June too.
Anyway, 9.30pm today I will be going to a cinema to watch a Japanese movie known as KAIJI. The ultimate gambler.
Hmm... got to go out soon so I can't talk much. Just wanna talk about a short topic. 'Human'.
In this world, there are currently 6 types of human. Let me talk about the fundamental 2 types first. The first type is what we known as male and the second type is what we known as female. These are what we call gender.
There are lots of differences between male and female. For example, the male in Japan have all the power. Female have to listen to the male. But in country like Singapore, things are changing. The females are taking control. They are getting stronger than the males. They are getting independent. Perhaps because they feel that guys are not reliable. Something similar between male and female is that all of us want to be loved. Who doesn't? All of us wanna be dote on... we want people to care about us. But the mindset of male and female is different. They say male cares about the end result. Males care about the effectiveness. Females are more meticulous. They care about the efficiency. They plan on the things that are required to reach the end result. Guys don't. Sometimes a problem may seem as a problem to girls but it isn't a problem to the boys.
I can't give you examples because different people have different views.
Well... one fact that we must face is that guys are more lustful than girls. Guys are born like that.... it's not something that we want. We can hate it...we can like it.. but we still can't escape from the fact. For some reason... majority of the guys in this world like sex. There are guys who dislike sex. I seen some before. But lets talk about the majority.
Lets face the fact that no matter how much a guy have sex, he still wants it.
The girls are more careful when they give in. This is due to the fact that they are the one who will be pregnant for 10 months. Not you guys!...including me. Well... is sex healthy? I don't know... but I am sure it's not unhealthy. There was once I asked a Japanese woman a question regarding sex and her answer freaked me out. I asked her do Japanese think that sex will make them young and she said kinda yes. Geez... what kind of country is Japan? A country where guys can rape girls and they don't have to go to jail for that... they just have to pay a fine and the case is closed. I pity girls who are born in Japan. I feel that they are not treated as human...they are treated as slave instead... sex slave. In countries like Japan,USA...etc.. I believe that it's kinda easy to find sex. A couple can date for just 1 month and they can have sex. I underline the word believe because it is my belief... it's my opinion.. it may not be true.
I am sure that in countries like Singapore etc... girls are very protective of themselves. Even if you date a girl for 1 year.. she will still not give you sex. Girls want love and guys want both love and sex.
Hmm... sorry.. I think I am out of topic... the main topic today is human. Not sex.
The other 4 types of human are gay,lesbian, transsexual and bisexual. They are considered rare cases.
Let me talk about transsexual first. I don't understand them at all. I don't understand why would a girl wanna change into a boy or a boy wanna change into a girl. In my point of view, I think it's kinda stupid. When you are born, your gender is fixed. No one can change it. So why would anyone wanna change it? But in their point of view, I think they have their own reason for wanting to change their gender.
I consider gay and lesbian as one category. They like people of their same gender. I can't understand why too but they have their choice. It's not something they can control too. My best friend was telling me..take for example...Singapore.. a boy who was in a boy school in both primary and secondary school. For 10 years... he have no female friends at all... perhaps it kinda feels like they have been trapped in a cage.
But one thing I feel unfair is that Lesbians are accepted but gays are not. Why?
Professionals say that it's because gays can transmit AIDS but the chance of getting AIDS in lesbians are low. I don't really agree totally. I think gays and lesbians should be treated equally as all of them are humans who have feelings too. We can't despise gays just because of AIDS and treat lesbians as normal because of no AIDS. I have never tried gay before and I never will. So I don't understand what are they thinking too. Well... I think the main reason in my mind why people treat gay and lesbian differently is not because of AIDS. I think it's because of the private part.
When you saw a video showing 2 girls nude and they are kissing... kinda using sex toy to play around... what do you feel? You feel it's alright... why? I think it's because of tits... which is what we known as breast. I would say majority of the population in this world like tits... some say because they are soft... some say because when we are born.. our mothers breastfeed us and therefore..we like it.
No matter what the reason is.. it's a fact that almost everyone of us like tits.
When you saw a video showing 2 guys nude... they are not kissing... they are having sex for real... what do you feel? You don't feel it's alright....why? Well... Penis... not everyone in this world like penis.. especially to the girls... that's what pains them.
I got to go... the last type of human is bisexual. People who like both gender? I don't know what's the reason too. But perhaps they do deserve our pity. Everyone of us do things for a reason.. we change for a purpose too.. no one will change suddenly. There must be something happened that made that person wanna change.
Gotta end here. But before that... my topic is human but I talked about sex.. it wasn't out of topic... it's the main word here today. The main reason is sex.
Beckham suffered a ruptured Achilles tendon injury. He may not play in the world cup this year. But I believe in miracle.. I believe god will bless him. I wanna watch England vs Portugal again. Beckham vs Christiano Ronaldo.
Recently Rooney is getting good in manchester united. I just hope he can remain his standard in world cup too. I remembered Rooney getting a red card in world cup 2006. What a waste...
England fought with Portugal in 2006 world cup. Beckham injured himself somewhere near half-time and he was upset that he can't play the game. The result was a draw and they went on to penalty kick. Portugal won.
Sigh... world cup 2010 is in June. I wish I can watch it but my exam will be in June too.
Anyway, 9.30pm today I will be going to a cinema to watch a Japanese movie known as KAIJI. The ultimate gambler.
Hmm... got to go out soon so I can't talk much. Just wanna talk about a short topic. 'Human'.
In this world, there are currently 6 types of human. Let me talk about the fundamental 2 types first. The first type is what we known as male and the second type is what we known as female. These are what we call gender.
There are lots of differences between male and female. For example, the male in Japan have all the power. Female have to listen to the male. But in country like Singapore, things are changing. The females are taking control. They are getting stronger than the males. They are getting independent. Perhaps because they feel that guys are not reliable. Something similar between male and female is that all of us want to be loved. Who doesn't? All of us wanna be dote on... we want people to care about us. But the mindset of male and female is different. They say male cares about the end result. Males care about the effectiveness. Females are more meticulous. They care about the efficiency. They plan on the things that are required to reach the end result. Guys don't. Sometimes a problem may seem as a problem to girls but it isn't a problem to the boys.
I can't give you examples because different people have different views.
Well... one fact that we must face is that guys are more lustful than girls. Guys are born like that.... it's not something that we want. We can hate it...we can like it.. but we still can't escape from the fact. For some reason... majority of the guys in this world like sex. There are guys who dislike sex. I seen some before. But lets talk about the majority.
Lets face the fact that no matter how much a guy have sex, he still wants it.
The girls are more careful when they give in. This is due to the fact that they are the one who will be pregnant for 10 months. Not you guys!...including me. Well... is sex healthy? I don't know... but I am sure it's not unhealthy. There was once I asked a Japanese woman a question regarding sex and her answer freaked me out. I asked her do Japanese think that sex will make them young and she said kinda yes. Geez... what kind of country is Japan? A country where guys can rape girls and they don't have to go to jail for that... they just have to pay a fine and the case is closed. I pity girls who are born in Japan. I feel that they are not treated as human...they are treated as slave instead... sex slave. In countries like Japan,USA...etc.. I believe that it's kinda easy to find sex. A couple can date for just 1 month and they can have sex. I underline the word believe because it is my belief... it's my opinion.. it may not be true.
I am sure that in countries like Singapore etc... girls are very protective of themselves. Even if you date a girl for 1 year.. she will still not give you sex. Girls want love and guys want both love and sex.
Hmm... sorry.. I think I am out of topic... the main topic today is human. Not sex.
The other 4 types of human are gay,lesbian, transsexual and bisexual. They are considered rare cases.
Let me talk about transsexual first. I don't understand them at all. I don't understand why would a girl wanna change into a boy or a boy wanna change into a girl. In my point of view, I think it's kinda stupid. When you are born, your gender is fixed. No one can change it. So why would anyone wanna change it? But in their point of view, I think they have their own reason for wanting to change their gender.
I consider gay and lesbian as one category. They like people of their same gender. I can't understand why too but they have their choice. It's not something they can control too. My best friend was telling me..take for example...Singapore.. a boy who was in a boy school in both primary and secondary school. For 10 years... he have no female friends at all... perhaps it kinda feels like they have been trapped in a cage.
But one thing I feel unfair is that Lesbians are accepted but gays are not. Why?
Professionals say that it's because gays can transmit AIDS but the chance of getting AIDS in lesbians are low. I don't really agree totally. I think gays and lesbians should be treated equally as all of them are humans who have feelings too. We can't despise gays just because of AIDS and treat lesbians as normal because of no AIDS. I have never tried gay before and I never will. So I don't understand what are they thinking too. Well... I think the main reason in my mind why people treat gay and lesbian differently is not because of AIDS. I think it's because of the private part.
When you saw a video showing 2 girls nude and they are kissing... kinda using sex toy to play around... what do you feel? You feel it's alright... why? I think it's because of tits... which is what we known as breast. I would say majority of the population in this world like tits... some say because they are soft... some say because when we are born.. our mothers breastfeed us and therefore..we like it.
No matter what the reason is.. it's a fact that almost everyone of us like tits.
When you saw a video showing 2 guys nude... they are not kissing... they are having sex for real... what do you feel? You don't feel it's alright....why? Well... Penis... not everyone in this world like penis.. especially to the girls... that's what pains them.
I got to go... the last type of human is bisexual. People who like both gender? I don't know what's the reason too. But perhaps they do deserve our pity. Everyone of us do things for a reason.. we change for a purpose too.. no one will change suddenly. There must be something happened that made that person wanna change.
Gotta end here. But before that... my topic is human but I talked about sex.. it wasn't out of topic... it's the main word here today. The main reason is sex.
horror
Hi people... just wanna share a Japan horror film with you all... Well.. the link only shows the part 2/2 of the film because I can't find the part 1/2.
vending machine
Generally..I like this film very much. It's about a guy and a girl who went to an isolated place for chalet. They ran out of drinks and were thirsty. So the guy went to search around the area for any shop but he couldn't find any. After giving up, he was walking back to the resort but he saw a vending machine. It was a weird machine. But the guy couldn't care anymore. He bought 2 cans and returned to the resort. Both of them drank it and suddenly... they felt their heartbeat getting faster and faster. They had sex after that. Sort of lose control because of that drink.
The next morning, they got addicted to that drink... it was like drug... they want it so badly.. but the truth is that the can of drink that they drank yesterday....was blood.. human blood...with our organs.... all cut into pieces and sold as drinks.
They decided to BBQ after that. They took out frozen meat and cooked it. Because of the blood that they drank, they dislike cooked meat. They find that it's not delicious. They started eating the food raw instead. The more they eat... the more delicious it is. Weird isn't it?
Both of them can't take it anymore.. they went out together to find that vending machine. After finding for hours, they finally found it.
The rest of the story is shown in the video above. Watch it and you will find out who is the owner of the vending machine...
This horror film is called Prayer beads. There are 9 episode in it and vending machine woman is the episode 2. There is another episode about the old mushroom lady but I can't find the video anywhere...sigh... it's interesting too.
vending machine
Generally..I like this film very much. It's about a guy and a girl who went to an isolated place for chalet. They ran out of drinks and were thirsty. So the guy went to search around the area for any shop but he couldn't find any. After giving up, he was walking back to the resort but he saw a vending machine. It was a weird machine. But the guy couldn't care anymore. He bought 2 cans and returned to the resort. Both of them drank it and suddenly... they felt their heartbeat getting faster and faster. They had sex after that. Sort of lose control because of that drink.
The next morning, they got addicted to that drink... it was like drug... they want it so badly.. but the truth is that the can of drink that they drank yesterday....was blood.. human blood...with our organs.... all cut into pieces and sold as drinks.
They decided to BBQ after that. They took out frozen meat and cooked it. Because of the blood that they drank, they dislike cooked meat. They find that it's not delicious. They started eating the food raw instead. The more they eat... the more delicious it is. Weird isn't it?
Both of them can't take it anymore.. they went out together to find that vending machine. After finding for hours, they finally found it.
The rest of the story is shown in the video above. Watch it and you will find out who is the owner of the vending machine...
This horror film is called Prayer beads. There are 9 episode in it and vending machine woman is the episode 2. There is another episode about the old mushroom lady but I can't find the video anywhere...sigh... it's interesting too.
14 March 2010
14/3
Hmm... there are 2 topics I wanna talk about today. But before that, let me handle some of my personal stuff. Not gonna brag about what I did today but...
Yesterday I was chatting with my friend(using 'mary' to replace her real name) on msn. It was regarding my ex-girlfriend. I can't say out her name because I know her friends love to read my blog. Forgive me for that... well.. all I wanna say is that... yesterday night.. I can't sleep at all. I don't know what's wrong.. I tried to close my eyes...but I just can't sleep... my mind was thinking... thinking of the word 'fairness'. Mary... you know..maybe you were right... you were right that it is wrong of me to stay away from my ex-gf after I found out the truth about her.. but I am sorry.. it is my phobia. You said I wasn't fair... she is a human too... she eat and sleep like me too. I agree... I wasn't fair. BUT.... if I was fair to her... who is gonna be fair to me?
When we were together, she lied to me that she wasn't a **. I don't mind the fact that she lied to me because I understand that humans do lie... I tell lies too.. who doesn't?
But mary.. the fact that ** became her history to me... I lost my conscience by staying away from her.
It's all over. So why am I writing this paragraph on my blog now? Mary... you are her close friend... and I am your friend... if you seriously still think that I don't have the right to comment on her being a **... if you think that I should apologize for insulting her... then fine.
Different people have different views on **. You think it's alright... but I think it's not alright.
I don't wanna apologize to her personally... because I believe that I will make it worse if I do that. Take it as I have no balls..take it as I have no courage.. I am just a coward. BUT LOOK....... the fact that I seriously loved her once... it pains me.
Mary... ask your guy friend this question. After dating a girl for 1 month, how will he feel if his gf says that she still doesn't take him as her bf yet? It's not insulting... it's humiliating.
Anyway, I promise you that I will never talk about her again... I do treat her as a friend still. I am sorry.
Phew... after saying out what I wanna say.. I can finally sleep comfortably tonight.
The first topic that I wanna say today is 'interesting'.
You must be wondering. Interesting? How special can this word be?
Well... do you know that 90% of the things that we do are based on interest?
Lets talk about language. Singaporeans love to watch korean drama nowadays. We perceive it as exciting. That's why we love to watch it. So one day, you feel like learning korean language. The reason is very simple. You wanna learn korean language because you BELIEVE that korean language is interesting. But is this true to Korean citizens? Nope.. this is not true...The korean thinks that their language is not interesting at all. Have you wondered why?
BINGO! That's right! What I am trying to say is that you believe that korean language is interesting because you don't understand it at all. However, due to the fact that koreans understand their language too well, it's no longer interesting to them.
Do you get what am I trying to say? Let me give you a better real life example. A boy who wanna date a girl. It's perfectly normal right? But why do this boy wanna date this particular girl? Why not anyone else? Again, the answer is very simple.When this boy sees this girl, he believe that this girl is very interesting. He wants to know more about her. Because she is interesting and this boy don't really understand her character yet, he wants to date her.
After so much effort put in, this girl accepted him. They start to understand each other.
So it goes like hmm.. my gf doesn't like crab... my gf hates red. After understanding each other, they decided to get married. After marriage, because they understand each other so well, they start to get bored of their partner.
So far this is the only reason I can think of regarding why do humans cheat. People like Tiger woods... Jack Neo.. they are famous.. they have wife and children. So why do they still cheat? I think it's because they are getting bored of their wife... even though they still love their wife. But is this accurate why do humans cheat? I don't think so... this can't be the only reason.. currently I am still finding out what is the cause.
The simplest example is a child who just bought gameboy advance SP to play. At first when he bought it, he will play with it 24 hours because the game is very interesting. 1 year later, you will find that he is still playing with his gameboy. But no longer 24 hours. It may be just 2 hours per day.
Another 1 year later, you will find that he no longer play his gameboy. So you are curious. You asked him why and he tell you that all of his friends are playing playstation portable(PSP). He is bored of his gameboy games. That's why he don't wanna play them anymore.
However, there are things that we don't get bored of. One good example is gambling. Have you seen a person who gamble said to you that he is tired of gambling? haha... if he said that to you... then something is really wrong.
The final topic I wanna talk about today is 'bad guys'.
There are so many bad guys in this world.. what type of bad guys am I talking about?
People who rape? People who murder innocent people? People who steal?
Well... I wanna talk about people who commits crime. Basically.... it's the general bad guys.
I am a bad guy... I admit... I committed crime before. I steal before.. I had underage sex before... But I have never ever done anything that causes the death of a person before.
People who know me will never believe that I committed these crimes before... maybe because I always look innocent.. but let me tell you this... never ever judge a book by its cover.
Think of things that you did wrong before. Think of mistakes that can't be forgiven. Do you dare to confess in front of god? I dare...not because I wanna be a hero... but because I wanna turn back.. I wanna forget about my past.. I wanna forget that I once lost my conscience. But I am sorry... it's just like items... once broken...considered sold. Mistakes that have been done... you will never be able to turn back and wash away your sin. They will follow you like your shadow... no matter how you run.. they will still be able to find you.
The man on the right wearing that gold shirt. He is an actor in Singapore. His nickname is ah nan. In hokkien dialect, we call him ah lam. Inside movies, he always play as the bad guy.. he always play the role of a gangster...loanshark...etc.. Years ago he was arrested by the police in real life for keeping drugs in his house. People start to ponder why did he do that. If there is a choice.. who doesn't wanna be the good guys?
Anyway.. why am I suddenly talking about ah nan? Because he is my uncle.. ya.... he is my relative.
People who know me will know that I WAS a playboy... I used the word 'was' because I believe I am no longer a playboy now. I used to cheat girl's feelings. I know that is wrong... it was bastard to do that.. that's why I turned back before it's too late.
Since everyone is talking about Jack Neo currently, I wanna talk about him too... I understand why did he do that. It was his fault.. I agree... but when he cheated his wife... it wasn't on purpose. To understand why people cheat, you must experience it. people who cheat will never realise that what they are doing is wrong. It's just like a thief. Will a thief who just stolen something confess to the police that he is the thief? The answer is so simple that my 3 years old brother can answer it.
My Richard's law states that 'Your greatest mistake is thinking that you made no mistake'. Why do I say that? well... if you believe that you didn't make any mistake then you won't take action to change the mistake. Am I right to say that?
From our point of view, Jack neo made a mistake ever since he cheated his wife. But to Jack, he himself doesn't know that. He realise that it's a mistake only when his wife found out that he have been cheating on her.
I got to go eat my lunch now.. But before I end this blog post for today, I just wanna say one last thing. Perhaps one of my Richard's law again.
When people make mistake... no matter small or big mistake.. everyone will always remember it. But when people do something right...no matter how right you are... why wasn't there anyone to praise you? Why didn't anyone remember that you are the one who did it right?
Yesterday I was chatting with my friend(using 'mary' to replace her real name) on msn. It was regarding my ex-girlfriend. I can't say out her name because I know her friends love to read my blog. Forgive me for that... well.. all I wanna say is that... yesterday night.. I can't sleep at all. I don't know what's wrong.. I tried to close my eyes...but I just can't sleep... my mind was thinking... thinking of the word 'fairness'. Mary... you know..maybe you were right... you were right that it is wrong of me to stay away from my ex-gf after I found out the truth about her.. but I am sorry.. it is my phobia. You said I wasn't fair... she is a human too... she eat and sleep like me too. I agree... I wasn't fair. BUT.... if I was fair to her... who is gonna be fair to me?
When we were together, she lied to me that she wasn't a **. I don't mind the fact that she lied to me because I understand that humans do lie... I tell lies too.. who doesn't?
But mary.. the fact that ** became her history to me... I lost my conscience by staying away from her.
It's all over. So why am I writing this paragraph on my blog now? Mary... you are her close friend... and I am your friend... if you seriously still think that I don't have the right to comment on her being a **... if you think that I should apologize for insulting her... then fine.
Different people have different views on **. You think it's alright... but I think it's not alright.
I don't wanna apologize to her personally... because I believe that I will make it worse if I do that. Take it as I have no balls..take it as I have no courage.. I am just a coward. BUT LOOK....... the fact that I seriously loved her once... it pains me.
Mary... ask your guy friend this question. After dating a girl for 1 month, how will he feel if his gf says that she still doesn't take him as her bf yet? It's not insulting... it's humiliating.
Anyway, I promise you that I will never talk about her again... I do treat her as a friend still. I am sorry.
Phew... after saying out what I wanna say.. I can finally sleep comfortably tonight.
The first topic that I wanna say today is 'interesting'.
You must be wondering. Interesting? How special can this word be?
Well... do you know that 90% of the things that we do are based on interest?
Lets talk about language. Singaporeans love to watch korean drama nowadays. We perceive it as exciting. That's why we love to watch it. So one day, you feel like learning korean language. The reason is very simple. You wanna learn korean language because you BELIEVE that korean language is interesting. But is this true to Korean citizens? Nope.. this is not true...The korean thinks that their language is not interesting at all. Have you wondered why?
BINGO! That's right! What I am trying to say is that you believe that korean language is interesting because you don't understand it at all. However, due to the fact that koreans understand their language too well, it's no longer interesting to them.
Do you get what am I trying to say? Let me give you a better real life example. A boy who wanna date a girl. It's perfectly normal right? But why do this boy wanna date this particular girl? Why not anyone else? Again, the answer is very simple.When this boy sees this girl, he believe that this girl is very interesting. He wants to know more about her. Because she is interesting and this boy don't really understand her character yet, he wants to date her.
After so much effort put in, this girl accepted him. They start to understand each other.
So it goes like hmm.. my gf doesn't like crab... my gf hates red. After understanding each other, they decided to get married. After marriage, because they understand each other so well, they start to get bored of their partner.
So far this is the only reason I can think of regarding why do humans cheat. People like Tiger woods... Jack Neo.. they are famous.. they have wife and children. So why do they still cheat? I think it's because they are getting bored of their wife... even though they still love their wife. But is this accurate why do humans cheat? I don't think so... this can't be the only reason.. currently I am still finding out what is the cause.
The simplest example is a child who just bought gameboy advance SP to play. At first when he bought it, he will play with it 24 hours because the game is very interesting. 1 year later, you will find that he is still playing with his gameboy. But no longer 24 hours. It may be just 2 hours per day.
Another 1 year later, you will find that he no longer play his gameboy. So you are curious. You asked him why and he tell you that all of his friends are playing playstation portable(PSP). He is bored of his gameboy games. That's why he don't wanna play them anymore.
However, there are things that we don't get bored of. One good example is gambling. Have you seen a person who gamble said to you that he is tired of gambling? haha... if he said that to you... then something is really wrong.
The final topic I wanna talk about today is 'bad guys'.
There are so many bad guys in this world.. what type of bad guys am I talking about?
People who rape? People who murder innocent people? People who steal?
Well... I wanna talk about people who commits crime. Basically.... it's the general bad guys.
I am a bad guy... I admit... I committed crime before. I steal before.. I had underage sex before... But I have never ever done anything that causes the death of a person before.
People who know me will never believe that I committed these crimes before... maybe because I always look innocent.. but let me tell you this... never ever judge a book by its cover.
Think of things that you did wrong before. Think of mistakes that can't be forgiven. Do you dare to confess in front of god? I dare...not because I wanna be a hero... but because I wanna turn back.. I wanna forget about my past.. I wanna forget that I once lost my conscience. But I am sorry... it's just like items... once broken...considered sold. Mistakes that have been done... you will never be able to turn back and wash away your sin. They will follow you like your shadow... no matter how you run.. they will still be able to find you.
The man on the right wearing that gold shirt. He is an actor in Singapore. His nickname is ah nan. In hokkien dialect, we call him ah lam. Inside movies, he always play as the bad guy.. he always play the role of a gangster...loanshark...etc.. Years ago he was arrested by the police in real life for keeping drugs in his house. People start to ponder why did he do that. If there is a choice.. who doesn't wanna be the good guys?
Anyway.. why am I suddenly talking about ah nan? Because he is my uncle.. ya.... he is my relative.
People who know me will know that I WAS a playboy... I used the word 'was' because I believe I am no longer a playboy now. I used to cheat girl's feelings. I know that is wrong... it was bastard to do that.. that's why I turned back before it's too late.
Since everyone is talking about Jack Neo currently, I wanna talk about him too... I understand why did he do that. It was his fault.. I agree... but when he cheated his wife... it wasn't on purpose. To understand why people cheat, you must experience it. people who cheat will never realise that what they are doing is wrong. It's just like a thief. Will a thief who just stolen something confess to the police that he is the thief? The answer is so simple that my 3 years old brother can answer it.
My Richard's law states that 'Your greatest mistake is thinking that you made no mistake'. Why do I say that? well... if you believe that you didn't make any mistake then you won't take action to change the mistake. Am I right to say that?
From our point of view, Jack neo made a mistake ever since he cheated his wife. But to Jack, he himself doesn't know that. He realise that it's a mistake only when his wife found out that he have been cheating on her.
I got to go eat my lunch now.. But before I end this blog post for today, I just wanna say one last thing. Perhaps one of my Richard's law again.
When people make mistake... no matter small or big mistake.. everyone will always remember it. But when people do something right...no matter how right you are... why wasn't there anyone to praise you? Why didn't anyone remember that you are the one who did it right?
13/3
Hmm... trying to type as fast as I can because I am running out of time... forgive me if there is any typo error like this want over here..
lol... some of you may not find it funny.. some of you may find it stupid... some of you may say that I am lame. Speaking of lame, how many of you actually understand the word lame? Even if you really know the meaning, have you ask yourself why are you using it?
Is it because Singaporeans are using it so you use it too?
That's right! The word I am saying today is 'follow'. Singaporeans love to follow. We see long queue.. we follow.. we see USA got games like the moment of truth.. we follow... we see people buy condom in 7 eleven, we follow also..(oops.. please exclude this one).
Some people blame us for copying... we reply them sorry hor.. you got no copyrights...why I cannot follow?
Only some things in life we don't follow.. Like if got people bankrupt.. who want to follow? Siao right?
Anyway, back to my 'lame' story, because we Singaporeans love to follow what other people do, people say what we follow what lor... for example, Ris Low. She created her nonsense BOOMZ and SHINGZ. She say boomz means good... shingz means bad.. so we follow lor... no harm following what.. so we say boomz means good... shingz means shit. we see other people saying it.. so we just follow lor.. this is interest following.. meaning you follow based on your interest.
Another type of follow is what we known as law following. These are things that people don't like but have to follow. For example, when GST rose from 5% to 7%, everyone complain... but no choice... we need food....clothes etc to survive. So even though we don't like it.. we still must follow.. can you imagine a bowl of mee pok dry also include GST? sian... last time my favorite mee pok only $2.50... now after add 7%... boss charge me $3. I ask why... he say GST...
Alright... lets go to the next topic... my bragging time ... today went to queensway because my sis want to buy a pair of shoe. After buying one.. we went to anchor point to eat. I shared a bowl of noodles with my auntie and my grandma ate rice. After eating a few rice, my grandma said she can't eat anymore. She say she is full. But I know she is lying.. she just don't have the appetite to eat. So after that we went to plaza singapura.
Wa cool... got wine fair.. so many wine for sale.. so we went in and see... all the brand look so strange to me.. never seen before..never heard before.. it's not that they are not famous.. it's just that I don't know any brand. So I tried a sample of their white wine and they didn't check my IC. LOL... Hmm... I wanted to buy a bottle but my mum is beside me.. she will never allow me to drink. So I can't. I was looking for champagne. But they don't have any sample for it.. they only have red and white wine. Then after walking a while... we saw russian vodka.. it was 40% alcohol and it cost less than $50.. omg.. If make a bomb with it.. it will be damn nice to drink... lol... looks like I am back to drinking again...
It's time to go home... we took mrt and usually we will stop at kovan. I remembered my grandma ate very little and I decided to tell a white lie. I told her I am very hungry now and forced her to go eat. My grandma lost weight recently because of her son.. which is my uncle.. sigh.. she is still very sad... she cried today... this wound is so painful that time can never heal it... my mum understand this feeling too.. because she once lost her son too.
So all of us went to punggol nasi lemak to eat... erm... of course nasi lemak. My grandma didn't order it and I know my purpose here is to make her eat.. I am not hungry at all.. it was just a lie. So I asked her what she wanna eat and she asked me to eat mine first.. she will see what she wanna eat. My food is here but she is still sitting there.... so I just don't care la.. I went to buy some food for her even though she say she don't want. After that she got eat... phew... I know my grandma pattern... she say don't want but if you buy..she will eat..
Anyway... we took bus home and my mum was telling me yesterday my grandma cried while thinking of her son. Then my mum began to cry too... I don't know what to do... I am helpless... I am useless... I agree... I blame myself for it... not for his death... but for not cherishing him when he is still alive.
I blame myself for not teaching him alphabet. When he is free, he would take out his exercise book and learn how to write ABC. I regret not teaching him... how to spell apple... how to spell boy. I regret not talking to him more often... I should have done more things earlier when he is still here.
A minute ago I stop blogging halfway. My mum asked me to go down to take care of my brother. While he was drinking milk... I saw my mum crying... so as a son.. I have to show her some care... no one will cry for no reason. So I asked her what happened and she said she find that her mother is very pitiful...
sigh... ya... I strongly agree... seeing your son dying before you die is one of the greatest sadness. The white hair people sending off the black hair people...
In 1999.... my mother lost her son... In 2009... my grandmother lost her son... sigh... years that end with 9.
Recently I find that kids are very stubborn.. things that you say no.. they wanna say yes.. they just like to make you angry... sometimes my brother is so stubborn that I feel like slapping him. But then when I think back... when I was 3 years old... wasn't I very stubborn too? I don't know what is right and wrong too... so I can't blame him...
Sometimes I will look at him and smile.... not smiling because he is cute.. but I will smile and say to myself... Riyan... you are born in the wrong family.. you shouldn't have been here... you don't deserve such a pathetic family... you shouldn't come here to suffer at all. Then I will shake my head and sigh.
But then sometimes... he is the one who will bring us laughter... without him...I won't see my mum smiling at all.
Hmm.. I am left with 1 month of holiday. During these days of my holiday... I would say it was not that good... don't really know why too.
Time to end here for today..but before that..I have one last thing to say.. god... I don't pray to be a successful man. I don't pray to be rich. I just pray for safety... I don't want to see any of my loved ones leaving me anymore... Not for now... I fell down so many times in my life... even now. I kept falling down.. but I am always getting up on my own... and tell myself... this is not the end... this is just the beginning. I will never be defeated.
lol... some of you may not find it funny.. some of you may find it stupid... some of you may say that I am lame. Speaking of lame, how many of you actually understand the word lame? Even if you really know the meaning, have you ask yourself why are you using it?
Is it because Singaporeans are using it so you use it too?
That's right! The word I am saying today is 'follow'. Singaporeans love to follow. We see long queue.. we follow.. we see USA got games like the moment of truth.. we follow... we see people buy condom in 7 eleven, we follow also..(oops.. please exclude this one).
Some people blame us for copying... we reply them sorry hor.. you got no copyrights...why I cannot follow?
Only some things in life we don't follow.. Like if got people bankrupt.. who want to follow? Siao right?
Anyway, back to my 'lame' story, because we Singaporeans love to follow what other people do, people say what we follow what lor... for example, Ris Low. She created her nonsense BOOMZ and SHINGZ. She say boomz means good... shingz means bad.. so we follow lor... no harm following what.. so we say boomz means good... shingz means shit. we see other people saying it.. so we just follow lor.. this is interest following.. meaning you follow based on your interest.
Another type of follow is what we known as law following. These are things that people don't like but have to follow. For example, when GST rose from 5% to 7%, everyone complain... but no choice... we need food....clothes etc to survive. So even though we don't like it.. we still must follow.. can you imagine a bowl of mee pok dry also include GST? sian... last time my favorite mee pok only $2.50... now after add 7%... boss charge me $3. I ask why... he say GST...
Alright... lets go to the next topic... my bragging time ... today went to queensway because my sis want to buy a pair of shoe. After buying one.. we went to anchor point to eat. I shared a bowl of noodles with my auntie and my grandma ate rice. After eating a few rice, my grandma said she can't eat anymore. She say she is full. But I know she is lying.. she just don't have the appetite to eat. So after that we went to plaza singapura.
Wa cool... got wine fair.. so many wine for sale.. so we went in and see... all the brand look so strange to me.. never seen before..never heard before.. it's not that they are not famous.. it's just that I don't know any brand. So I tried a sample of their white wine and they didn't check my IC. LOL... Hmm... I wanted to buy a bottle but my mum is beside me.. she will never allow me to drink. So I can't. I was looking for champagne. But they don't have any sample for it.. they only have red and white wine. Then after walking a while... we saw russian vodka.. it was 40% alcohol and it cost less than $50.. omg.. If make a bomb with it.. it will be damn nice to drink... lol... looks like I am back to drinking again...
It's time to go home... we took mrt and usually we will stop at kovan. I remembered my grandma ate very little and I decided to tell a white lie. I told her I am very hungry now and forced her to go eat. My grandma lost weight recently because of her son.. which is my uncle.. sigh.. she is still very sad... she cried today... this wound is so painful that time can never heal it... my mum understand this feeling too.. because she once lost her son too.
So all of us went to punggol nasi lemak to eat... erm... of course nasi lemak. My grandma didn't order it and I know my purpose here is to make her eat.. I am not hungry at all.. it was just a lie. So I asked her what she wanna eat and she asked me to eat mine first.. she will see what she wanna eat. My food is here but she is still sitting there.... so I just don't care la.. I went to buy some food for her even though she say she don't want. After that she got eat... phew... I know my grandma pattern... she say don't want but if you buy..she will eat..
Anyway... we took bus home and my mum was telling me yesterday my grandma cried while thinking of her son. Then my mum began to cry too... I don't know what to do... I am helpless... I am useless... I agree... I blame myself for it... not for his death... but for not cherishing him when he is still alive.
I blame myself for not teaching him alphabet. When he is free, he would take out his exercise book and learn how to write ABC. I regret not teaching him... how to spell apple... how to spell boy. I regret not talking to him more often... I should have done more things earlier when he is still here.
A minute ago I stop blogging halfway. My mum asked me to go down to take care of my brother. While he was drinking milk... I saw my mum crying... so as a son.. I have to show her some care... no one will cry for no reason. So I asked her what happened and she said she find that her mother is very pitiful...
sigh... ya... I strongly agree... seeing your son dying before you die is one of the greatest sadness. The white hair people sending off the black hair people...
In 1999.... my mother lost her son... In 2009... my grandmother lost her son... sigh... years that end with 9.
Recently I find that kids are very stubborn.. things that you say no.. they wanna say yes.. they just like to make you angry... sometimes my brother is so stubborn that I feel like slapping him. But then when I think back... when I was 3 years old... wasn't I very stubborn too? I don't know what is right and wrong too... so I can't blame him...
Sometimes I will look at him and smile.... not smiling because he is cute.. but I will smile and say to myself... Riyan... you are born in the wrong family.. you shouldn't have been here... you don't deserve such a pathetic family... you shouldn't come here to suffer at all. Then I will shake my head and sigh.
But then sometimes... he is the one who will bring us laughter... without him...I won't see my mum smiling at all.
Hmm.. I am left with 1 month of holiday. During these days of my holiday... I would say it was not that good... don't really know why too.
Time to end here for today..but before that..I have one last thing to say.. god... I don't pray to be a successful man. I don't pray to be rich. I just pray for safety... I don't want to see any of my loved ones leaving me anymore... Not for now... I fell down so many times in my life... even now. I kept falling down.. but I am always getting up on my own... and tell myself... this is not the end... this is just the beginning. I will never be defeated.
12 March 2010
12/3
Hmm.. I thought I am drunk... but looks like I am not. Just drank a can of Carlsberg. My face is red... but I am still very clear.
This morning woke up... couldn't sleep well last night.. don't know why. Woke up at 9am. It was pretty early for me as normally I will wake up at 1pm. The first thing I did was to turn on my phone. I am not excited or nervous about my main exam result but after that... I didn't receive the sms from TP regarding my result. So I went to sleep again. I woke up at 11am and sighed... why didn't I receive the sms still? I checked my phone and saw 1 message received. I opened it and it was my result. It says business accounting 2: distinction. Business statistics: distinction. Basic calculus: distinction. principles of management: A. marketing fundamental: A. Microeconomics: A.
I was pretty happy that I manage to get all A and above for all my subjects. This means that my GPA for this semester is 4.0. Hmm.. but I was pretty unhappy at my microecons. It was so easy when I did the paper but why did I get an A only and not distinction? I expected a distinction for it... Marketing and principles of management shocked me. I expected B+ for this 2 subjects. But I got an A instead.
Went back to sleep again. Woke up at around erm.... 12pm? Went to TP website to see my cumulative GPA...the results are not updated yet. I waited till 2pm and the results are updated. I saw my overall GPA. Hmm... my GPA rose from 3.1 to 3.52. It wasn't really a huge increase...and I have to put in more effort... to enter local university... 3.52 is still not enough.
Ouch... a little headache... feel sleepy... I wonder when will my timetable for next sem be out.. so that I can know which class will I be sent into. yawn... time to sleep... gotta wake up at 9pm. take care...
This morning woke up... couldn't sleep well last night.. don't know why. Woke up at 9am. It was pretty early for me as normally I will wake up at 1pm. The first thing I did was to turn on my phone. I am not excited or nervous about my main exam result but after that... I didn't receive the sms from TP regarding my result. So I went to sleep again. I woke up at 11am and sighed... why didn't I receive the sms still? I checked my phone and saw 1 message received. I opened it and it was my result. It says business accounting 2: distinction. Business statistics: distinction. Basic calculus: distinction. principles of management: A. marketing fundamental: A. Microeconomics: A.
I was pretty happy that I manage to get all A and above for all my subjects. This means that my GPA for this semester is 4.0. Hmm.. but I was pretty unhappy at my microecons. It was so easy when I did the paper but why did I get an A only and not distinction? I expected a distinction for it... Marketing and principles of management shocked me. I expected B+ for this 2 subjects. But I got an A instead.
Went back to sleep again. Woke up at around erm.... 12pm? Went to TP website to see my cumulative GPA...the results are not updated yet. I waited till 2pm and the results are updated. I saw my overall GPA. Hmm... my GPA rose from 3.1 to 3.52. It wasn't really a huge increase...and I have to put in more effort... to enter local university... 3.52 is still not enough.
Ouch... a little headache... feel sleepy... I wonder when will my timetable for next sem be out.. so that I can know which class will I be sent into. yawn... time to sleep... gotta wake up at 9pm. take care...
11 March 2010
10/3 & 11/3. To remember what I have written.
10th march... one day is gone again. Lots of stuff can be done in a day. There is no such thing as wasting time or making use of time.. it's just time management. You can't waste time all the time and you can't make use of time forever... there will always be a mixture. Just like whether are you a leader or a follower. Leaders like Obama can't lead forever.. he have to be a follower sometimes... Newbies can't follow forever.. they have to lead one day too.
Gurwin left SG this morning. Have a nice trip...buddy.... talking about friendship...how many close friends do you have? In other words, how many of your friends do you actually hang out with? I find that many of us have lots of friends... we have all kinds of friends... but how many of them do you actually cherish and value? I am not talking about those friends that you say hi and bye with. It's not those friends that you make use of him...he makes use of you. It's not those friends that will go out with you... laugh out loud with you... have fun with you. These aren't true friend at all.
A true friend is someone who cares about you... share his secrets with you...trust you... believe in you..motivate you... be with you when you are having difficulty.... and chat with you when you are bored. But then is this true? This sound more like a boyfriend to me. So what's a true friend? Beats me.
When you add a friend of yours in facebook and saw that he have 600+ friends... are you jealous?
It's just the mask that you are seeing. Deep down... he himself know the truth about how many true friends he have.
I don't have many true friend... my mum tell me that a true friend is someone who will treat you things to eat and sometimes.. you treat him back... so thats why I have been finding a way to treat sean chan something.
Lets forget about friendship and talk about family. Some family are very lucky... some are very unlucky. If there is a choice... who doesn't wanna be born in a rich family? But because there is no choice... we can't choose which family we want to be born in. That's why some of us are poor. I would say I was born in a lucky family. I was born with a silver spoon.... I was born with happiness.... love... I remembered my dad kept striking 4D and TOTO when I was born. I brought luck to him. But then when I grow up... I find that hey... it's not true... actually... I am born in an unlucky family. I have grown up so fast just to watch my family tearing apart. I grown up to see my loved ones leaving me one by one. I have grown up just to find out that the word happiness is no longer inside my dictionary. Everyday I have been depressed in the inside but force myself to smile at the outside so that no one will know how painful my heart hurts. I believe many of my friends faced this problem too... you know you are upset... but you just don't wanna show it.
I am a guy who love to hide problems in my heart and refuse to let it out. It's not that I refuse to tell anyone.... it's just that even if I tell all of my friends.... what can they do to help? Apparently nothing. So it's useless to tell to. This is life.... this is my life..... I have to accept it no matter I like it or not.
The price of houses in SG rise recently and so do my house. My house right now can sell for S$750,000. It's almost a million dollars. I remember on 3/3/2005... we bought this house at only S$300,000. The price is more than doubled now. But then after selling it... we don't earn a profit at all... we are facing loss. My mum lost her husband. I lost my father. problems keep coming.
I am feeling like I am lost.... lost in an island... and there are only 2 roads to go home... but I only can choose one. The good news is both road will take me home but the bad news is I have to choose one out of the 2.. no 3rd choice. I asked myself which road I wanna choose and my answer is I don't wanna choose a road at all.... I don't wanna follow either one of them... but I can't survive on myself... I find myself fortunate because I am above 18. The law states that child who are above 18 have the right to choose who to follow. But fuck you, I follow my dad I lose my mum. I follow my mum I lose my dad. I understand why my mum hates him... I know why is my mum walking this road... I agree with her..she is walking the right road. I saw what my dad did... I know he have changed.. but then... my blood inside me contain his blood too...
I can't run away from the truth... I have ran for years... I kept running and running.. just to find out that the truth is still standing at the exit door waiting for me. Truth is laughing at me...because it's useless to run.. no matter how I run.. I still have to go to the exit door to get out. I once used alcohol to help me to run. I would drink daily so that I can ignore the truth... take it as a dream... but when I wake up... the nightmare is back... this ain't a dream. This is reality. FML.
I once wanted to smoke to forget about the truth... but seeing my grandpa dying because of smoking... it scares me...
There are so many choices in life.... so many to make... how sure are you that your decision is the best one? I chose to hide my problems from kyo... I am lucky to have her... she will always share with me her problems.. and I will always solve them for her... even if I have to sacrifice things to help her.
She is busy studying now and I don't wanna disturb her. It's been long since we chat too. Our chatting time is getting lesser and lesser. I don't wanna online msn nowadays... because I am afraid... I am afraid of hurting her... because I am having thoughts of breaking up with her. She's so beautiful... so smart... I am no longer good enough for her. So many guys have tried wooing her before... but silly girl.. why the hell did you choose me....a useless boy to be your bf? I have nothing now. I don't have the confidence to assure her family that I can give her happiness anymore. So I believe my best choice now is to let her go... sorry lovely... I love you.
I no longer have the mood to be in love. Sorry for being selfish... sorry for being stupid... but you gotta trust me.. I am doing this for you. I would rather you feel pain for a short term and be happy for a long term than to feel pain for a long term and happy for short term.I am sorry for breaking my promise not to hurt you again.
It took me 2 days to write this post. Ytd I was writing halfway and tears started rolling down my cheek for no reason and I have to stop writing. They say life is full of ups and downs... I don't agree anymore. I think life is always full of downs. Because downs last so long but ups last so short. Sometimes I seriously wonder... what is the purpose of me living as a human on earth... why am I here? To achieve something? or just to wait for death when I am old? sigh... life is so boring... when we are born, we don't know anything.. then we slowly learn.. go to school...play a fool... then we grow up to work... people call you do things like as if you are a slave.. they fuck you here and there... things that you believe it's correct they tell you it's wrong... they just want to torture you. So what can you do? only got 2 choices again... 1st is to quit lor... 2nd is to bear with it lor... the first choice teachers keep telling us if you quit.. it just means that you are weak.. you are quitting because that person want you to quit. And because of your high salary.. you bear with it lor... but bearing with it is easier said than done. People like your boss continue to find things to fuck your life up and down...
Then finally one day you suddenly get promoted to be manager. You thought that hey... not bad huh... I think I made a right choice by bearing with it... now I get promoted. Maybe this is what they mean by 'life is full of up and down'. I think my 'up' is here now. Then 2 weeks later.. you will regret what you said.. you will realise that actually.... your 'down' is the one who is coming. Your salary only rise by $500 but your work increased by 3 times. Not only your boss want to give you trouble but your juniors are also giving you trouble.
Well.. it's not purposely that boss wanna give you trouble.. it's just that the top boss pressure your boss to increase sales... then your boss have to pressure you lor. Sales target cannot reach.. no commission lor..but.. next month increase your sales target again. This is the life of people out there. Sometimes you wonder.. hey.. how come my boss treat Jessica so good? How come Jessica's sales target is only $10,000 but mine is $40,000? You go ask your boss... boss tell you because he thinks you are more hardworking.. he thinks that you can do better than jessica. It's just all shitty excuses.. maybe jessica is boss's mistress? maybe they even had sex before? Who knows? You will never know. All you need to know is you must do your job like a slave. Not happy? Leave lor. Then one day you seriously cannot bear with it anymore... tak boleh tahan..
You are angry that boss is being so unfair.. but sorry lor... life is never fair. So you used a computer and printed your resignation letter. You barged in your boss office without knocking the door.. you bang the table and say... boss.. I will no longer work for you.. I don't wanna see your chee bye face anymore. Then at this moment you will add in a bit of vulgarity because so many years you have worked here.. you got promoted only after working 3 years here but Jessica got promoted to a position higher than yours in just 6 months. So you start to scold KNNBCCB blah blah blah.. after that you went home... you decided to find a new job.. but can't find for months. For some reason.. don't know why.... none of the interviews were successful. So how? If you are single, you lucky lor... but if you are married... god bless you... months of electricity...water... phone bills waiting for you... plus credit cards too... ho-say TG liao... you can't pay.. you quickly seek a job... but all the job wa sian... the salary only $2000 per month... your job to be done got so many... not worth to do. So you rejected it.
Then one day your lucky star is here. You found a good job... you start to earn big money... you think this should be where you belong. But then you look at yourself... you are already 40 years old... if you single..you are too old to find a gf... plus when you get married.. you are already 50 years old.. If you are married... then good lor... seeing your own child grow up... then years later... you are too old to work.. time to retire... sigh.... this is life... no one can get out of this cycle of life. No matter who you are... you can be rich..you can be poor... but as long as you are a human... you still can't get out of this life cycle.
They say rich people are very big deal. I agree... they can buy 5 LV bags... 10 iPhone... 7 Ferrari cars... 1 bungalow. Poor people like us cannot. We admire... we envy... how come they can have such a good life? How come we are all humans but we are different? Sigh.. no need to admire one.. just work hard and do what you think it's right.
No matter how rich they are.. they still have to die one day.. no one can escape from this fact.
They also say rich people no big deal. I agree also... not because I am crazy... everything also agree... but there was this story of a rich man and a poor man in China. The poor man admire the rich man every time he walk pass his house. The rich man despised the poor man for being poor. So one day..natural disaster happened.. Flood came and everyone panicked. The poor man quickly grabbed his cheap biscuits and went to the rooftop. The rich man was stupid. He didn't grab food. He took his gold... jewellery... and climbed to the rooftop too. The water level almost reached the rooftop but it stopped. 3 days later.. the water level is still the same.. no one can do anything to help. The poor man got hungry and took out his biscuit to eat. The rich man was also hungry but have no food to eat. So he asked the poor man to sell him some biscuits.He offered the poor man gold but the poor man refused. The next day, the rich man begged the poor man to sell him some biscuits.. he is willing to give him all his money...property... cars..etc.. the poor man laughed and said....look like rich people are no big deal... the next day.. the rich man died of hunger.
The rich won't be rich forever and the poor won't be poor forever.
sigh... my hands are tired... can't type anymore...
I am not emo... not sad... not mad... I am just depressed. I need time to get things back to their original position. tc.
RCYY
Gurwin left SG this morning. Have a nice trip...buddy.... talking about friendship...how many close friends do you have? In other words, how many of your friends do you actually hang out with? I find that many of us have lots of friends... we have all kinds of friends... but how many of them do you actually cherish and value? I am not talking about those friends that you say hi and bye with. It's not those friends that you make use of him...he makes use of you. It's not those friends that will go out with you... laugh out loud with you... have fun with you. These aren't true friend at all.
A true friend is someone who cares about you... share his secrets with you...trust you... believe in you..motivate you... be with you when you are having difficulty.... and chat with you when you are bored. But then is this true? This sound more like a boyfriend to me. So what's a true friend? Beats me.
When you add a friend of yours in facebook and saw that he have 600+ friends... are you jealous?
It's just the mask that you are seeing. Deep down... he himself know the truth about how many true friends he have.
I don't have many true friend... my mum tell me that a true friend is someone who will treat you things to eat and sometimes.. you treat him back... so thats why I have been finding a way to treat sean chan something.
Lets forget about friendship and talk about family. Some family are very lucky... some are very unlucky. If there is a choice... who doesn't wanna be born in a rich family? But because there is no choice... we can't choose which family we want to be born in. That's why some of us are poor. I would say I was born in a lucky family. I was born with a silver spoon.... I was born with happiness.... love... I remembered my dad kept striking 4D and TOTO when I was born. I brought luck to him. But then when I grow up... I find that hey... it's not true... actually... I am born in an unlucky family. I have grown up so fast just to watch my family tearing apart. I grown up to see my loved ones leaving me one by one. I have grown up just to find out that the word happiness is no longer inside my dictionary. Everyday I have been depressed in the inside but force myself to smile at the outside so that no one will know how painful my heart hurts. I believe many of my friends faced this problem too... you know you are upset... but you just don't wanna show it.
I am a guy who love to hide problems in my heart and refuse to let it out. It's not that I refuse to tell anyone.... it's just that even if I tell all of my friends.... what can they do to help? Apparently nothing. So it's useless to tell to. This is life.... this is my life..... I have to accept it no matter I like it or not.
The price of houses in SG rise recently and so do my house. My house right now can sell for S$750,000. It's almost a million dollars. I remember on 3/3/2005... we bought this house at only S$300,000. The price is more than doubled now. But then after selling it... we don't earn a profit at all... we are facing loss. My mum lost her husband. I lost my father. problems keep coming.
I am feeling like I am lost.... lost in an island... and there are only 2 roads to go home... but I only can choose one. The good news is both road will take me home but the bad news is I have to choose one out of the 2.. no 3rd choice. I asked myself which road I wanna choose and my answer is I don't wanna choose a road at all.... I don't wanna follow either one of them... but I can't survive on myself... I find myself fortunate because I am above 18. The law states that child who are above 18 have the right to choose who to follow. But fuck you, I follow my dad I lose my mum. I follow my mum I lose my dad. I understand why my mum hates him... I know why is my mum walking this road... I agree with her..she is walking the right road. I saw what my dad did... I know he have changed.. but then... my blood inside me contain his blood too...
I can't run away from the truth... I have ran for years... I kept running and running.. just to find out that the truth is still standing at the exit door waiting for me. Truth is laughing at me...because it's useless to run.. no matter how I run.. I still have to go to the exit door to get out. I once used alcohol to help me to run. I would drink daily so that I can ignore the truth... take it as a dream... but when I wake up... the nightmare is back... this ain't a dream. This is reality. FML.
I once wanted to smoke to forget about the truth... but seeing my grandpa dying because of smoking... it scares me...
There are so many choices in life.... so many to make... how sure are you that your decision is the best one? I chose to hide my problems from kyo... I am lucky to have her... she will always share with me her problems.. and I will always solve them for her... even if I have to sacrifice things to help her.
She is busy studying now and I don't wanna disturb her. It's been long since we chat too. Our chatting time is getting lesser and lesser. I don't wanna online msn nowadays... because I am afraid... I am afraid of hurting her... because I am having thoughts of breaking up with her. She's so beautiful... so smart... I am no longer good enough for her. So many guys have tried wooing her before... but silly girl.. why the hell did you choose me....a useless boy to be your bf? I have nothing now. I don't have the confidence to assure her family that I can give her happiness anymore. So I believe my best choice now is to let her go... sorry lovely... I love you.
I no longer have the mood to be in love. Sorry for being selfish... sorry for being stupid... but you gotta trust me.. I am doing this for you. I would rather you feel pain for a short term and be happy for a long term than to feel pain for a long term and happy for short term.I am sorry for breaking my promise not to hurt you again.
It took me 2 days to write this post. Ytd I was writing halfway and tears started rolling down my cheek for no reason and I have to stop writing. They say life is full of ups and downs... I don't agree anymore. I think life is always full of downs. Because downs last so long but ups last so short. Sometimes I seriously wonder... what is the purpose of me living as a human on earth... why am I here? To achieve something? or just to wait for death when I am old? sigh... life is so boring... when we are born, we don't know anything.. then we slowly learn.. go to school...play a fool... then we grow up to work... people call you do things like as if you are a slave.. they fuck you here and there... things that you believe it's correct they tell you it's wrong... they just want to torture you. So what can you do? only got 2 choices again... 1st is to quit lor... 2nd is to bear with it lor... the first choice teachers keep telling us if you quit.. it just means that you are weak.. you are quitting because that person want you to quit. And because of your high salary.. you bear with it lor... but bearing with it is easier said than done. People like your boss continue to find things to fuck your life up and down...
Then finally one day you suddenly get promoted to be manager. You thought that hey... not bad huh... I think I made a right choice by bearing with it... now I get promoted. Maybe this is what they mean by 'life is full of up and down'. I think my 'up' is here now. Then 2 weeks later.. you will regret what you said.. you will realise that actually.... your 'down' is the one who is coming. Your salary only rise by $500 but your work increased by 3 times. Not only your boss want to give you trouble but your juniors are also giving you trouble.
Well.. it's not purposely that boss wanna give you trouble.. it's just that the top boss pressure your boss to increase sales... then your boss have to pressure you lor. Sales target cannot reach.. no commission lor..but.. next month increase your sales target again. This is the life of people out there. Sometimes you wonder.. hey.. how come my boss treat Jessica so good? How come Jessica's sales target is only $10,000 but mine is $40,000? You go ask your boss... boss tell you because he thinks you are more hardworking.. he thinks that you can do better than jessica. It's just all shitty excuses.. maybe jessica is boss's mistress? maybe they even had sex before? Who knows? You will never know. All you need to know is you must do your job like a slave. Not happy? Leave lor. Then one day you seriously cannot bear with it anymore... tak boleh tahan..
You are angry that boss is being so unfair.. but sorry lor... life is never fair. So you used a computer and printed your resignation letter. You barged in your boss office without knocking the door.. you bang the table and say... boss.. I will no longer work for you.. I don't wanna see your chee bye face anymore. Then at this moment you will add in a bit of vulgarity because so many years you have worked here.. you got promoted only after working 3 years here but Jessica got promoted to a position higher than yours in just 6 months. So you start to scold KNNBCCB blah blah blah.. after that you went home... you decided to find a new job.. but can't find for months. For some reason.. don't know why.... none of the interviews were successful. So how? If you are single, you lucky lor... but if you are married... god bless you... months of electricity...water... phone bills waiting for you... plus credit cards too... ho-say TG liao... you can't pay.. you quickly seek a job... but all the job wa sian... the salary only $2000 per month... your job to be done got so many... not worth to do. So you rejected it.
Then one day your lucky star is here. You found a good job... you start to earn big money... you think this should be where you belong. But then you look at yourself... you are already 40 years old... if you single..you are too old to find a gf... plus when you get married.. you are already 50 years old.. If you are married... then good lor... seeing your own child grow up... then years later... you are too old to work.. time to retire... sigh.... this is life... no one can get out of this cycle of life. No matter who you are... you can be rich..you can be poor... but as long as you are a human... you still can't get out of this life cycle.
They say rich people are very big deal. I agree... they can buy 5 LV bags... 10 iPhone... 7 Ferrari cars... 1 bungalow. Poor people like us cannot. We admire... we envy... how come they can have such a good life? How come we are all humans but we are different? Sigh.. no need to admire one.. just work hard and do what you think it's right.
No matter how rich they are.. they still have to die one day.. no one can escape from this fact.
They also say rich people no big deal. I agree also... not because I am crazy... everything also agree... but there was this story of a rich man and a poor man in China. The poor man admire the rich man every time he walk pass his house. The rich man despised the poor man for being poor. So one day..natural disaster happened.. Flood came and everyone panicked. The poor man quickly grabbed his cheap biscuits and went to the rooftop. The rich man was stupid. He didn't grab food. He took his gold... jewellery... and climbed to the rooftop too. The water level almost reached the rooftop but it stopped. 3 days later.. the water level is still the same.. no one can do anything to help. The poor man got hungry and took out his biscuit to eat. The rich man was also hungry but have no food to eat. So he asked the poor man to sell him some biscuits.He offered the poor man gold but the poor man refused. The next day, the rich man begged the poor man to sell him some biscuits.. he is willing to give him all his money...property... cars..etc.. the poor man laughed and said....look like rich people are no big deal... the next day.. the rich man died of hunger.
The rich won't be rich forever and the poor won't be poor forever.
sigh... my hands are tired... can't type anymore...
I am not emo... not sad... not mad... I am just depressed. I need time to get things back to their original position. tc.
RCYY
09 March 2010
9/3
There are 3 news I wanna share today... one of the news I expected it.. and another one being the shocking news.. another one being the most shocking news.
But before that, let me brag about what I have been doing today. LOL
Woke up at 11am to go to school for the BIG interview. Reached there at 12.15 and that's my interview time. But the interview got delayed and I have to wait till 12.30 before it start. Hmm.. it's kinda buang for my interview but it's ok... if I have been selected to join them then good lor.. if not selected then nevermind lor... that's the common thinking we tend to have..haha... anyway not job interview... haha...
After that I went to T1 to buy my fav which I miss it so much... so long didn't get to drink it... surprisingly this is the first time that korean shop didn't check my IC to proof that I am above 18.
Hmm.. my 2nd bottle of my fav:
After that I went to cold storage to buy Carlsberg. IC kena checked here.
While walking to tampines bus interchange, I was drinking my fav just like that. Everyone was like looking at my green glass bottle which I don't know why... After that I took bus 72 to Hougang mall. Hmm.. the first thing I did was to go Cheers buy 4D and TOTO. Haha.. the 2 king of gambling game in SG. Why I call them king leh? Because they are legal mah... lol... IC kena checked here. The cashier said I looked too young.. she can't believe I am 19 this year.. haha... sigh.. I wonder is it good or bad to look young... maybe both.
After that I went to eat... Felt thirsty and took out my fav to drink. My shot glass is inside my bag so I used it. Hmm.. I wonder what happened.. drinking my fav suddenly make me wanna vomit... maybe I swallowed the rice and wine together. Went to return the vcds borrowed and rented a new vcd called gamer. I wanted to watch it years ago when it came out in cinema but it is M18. So a few years ago I can't watch. But finally today can watch..lol... IC didn't get checked..
Soz... the 1st news I wanna talk about today is
LINK:
SG Casino
Sigh.. blame the government for wanting to open this casino lor.. serve you right... now problems keep coming... people scam... these are the consequences of opening the casino.
The 2nd news I wanna share today was pretty shocking to me. Jack Neo... our famous director in Singapore... he is 50 years old.. and recently.. he had sex with a girl who he invited to film - Money no enough 2. I was seriously shocked... Jack Neo is this kind of people? I mean ok... humans do make mistakes. The actress Jack Neo had sex with is called Wendy Chong. The news call her a model. LMAO... this kind of girl can be a model? If she can be a model I am sure any mother in this world also can be a model. Anyway.. she had a relationship with Jack for 2 years already... what a bitch.
LINK:
Jack Neo sex.
wendy chong
Wendy's speech
Sorry for swearing... But the 3rd news made me swear even more.
LINK:
Teen raped
Click on the blue link on top and read the story. A teen who was raped by 15 men. It's so shocking that I don't know what to say. These 15 men don't deserve to be born as man. They don't deserve to have lan jiao and lan pa. May god punish them for their sin... may god let these 15 men be women in their next life. May god curse them to be robbed...raped...kidnapped and killed.
But before that, let me brag about what I have been doing today. LOL
Woke up at 11am to go to school for the BIG interview. Reached there at 12.15 and that's my interview time. But the interview got delayed and I have to wait till 12.30 before it start. Hmm.. it's kinda buang for my interview but it's ok... if I have been selected to join them then good lor.. if not selected then nevermind lor... that's the common thinking we tend to have..haha... anyway not job interview... haha...
After that I went to T1 to buy my fav which I miss it so much... so long didn't get to drink it... surprisingly this is the first time that korean shop didn't check my IC to proof that I am above 18.
Hmm.. my 2nd bottle of my fav:
While walking to tampines bus interchange, I was drinking my fav just like that. Everyone was like looking at my green glass bottle which I don't know why... After that I took bus 72 to Hougang mall. Hmm.. the first thing I did was to go Cheers buy 4D and TOTO. Haha.. the 2 king of gambling game in SG. Why I call them king leh? Because they are legal mah... lol... IC kena checked here. The cashier said I looked too young.. she can't believe I am 19 this year.. haha... sigh.. I wonder is it good or bad to look young... maybe both.
After that I went to eat... Felt thirsty and took out my fav to drink. My shot glass is inside my bag so I used it. Hmm.. I wonder what happened.. drinking my fav suddenly make me wanna vomit... maybe I swallowed the rice and wine together. Went to return the vcds borrowed and rented a new vcd called gamer. I wanted to watch it years ago when it came out in cinema but it is M18. So a few years ago I can't watch. But finally today can watch..lol... IC didn't get checked..
Soz... the 1st news I wanna talk about today is
LINK:
SG Casino
Sigh.. blame the government for wanting to open this casino lor.. serve you right... now problems keep coming... people scam... these are the consequences of opening the casino.
The 2nd news I wanna share today was pretty shocking to me. Jack Neo... our famous director in Singapore... he is 50 years old.. and recently.. he had sex with a girl who he invited to film - Money no enough 2. I was seriously shocked... Jack Neo is this kind of people? I mean ok... humans do make mistakes. The actress Jack Neo had sex with is called Wendy Chong. The news call her a model. LMAO... this kind of girl can be a model? If she can be a model I am sure any mother in this world also can be a model. Anyway.. she had a relationship with Jack for 2 years already... what a bitch.
LINK:
Jack Neo sex.
wendy chong
Wendy's speech
Sorry for swearing... But the 3rd news made me swear even more.
LINK:
Teen raped
Click on the blue link on top and read the story. A teen who was raped by 15 men. It's so shocking that I don't know what to say. These 15 men don't deserve to be born as man. They don't deserve to have lan jiao and lan pa. May god punish them for their sin... may god let these 15 men be women in their next life. May god curse them to be robbed...raped...kidnapped and killed.
08 March 2010
8/3
I was playing an online game just 30 mins ago. I entered a room called 'HC chill room'. Basically HC is a membership of the game. I am a HC. But the clothes I am wearing is not HC clothes. So I entered this room and asked the owner politely whether is this room only for HC? KNN she kick and ban me from her room just because I am not wearing my HC clothes. Na bei.. don't let me see her again online.. I see her one time I scold her one time.. HG sia..
Hmm.. pardon me for that. Last night I woke up because I smell some strange urine smell. So I touched my pants thinking did I urine when I was sleeping? It was dry and I am sure it's not me. In my room there is only me, my brother and my mum. So I wanted to find where is the source of this smell. Then suddenly I remembered...haha.. silly me.. My brother is wearing diapers.. I forgot.. that's why got urine smell.. So I slept back.
Woke up today at 10am. It was pretty early.. and I wonder why did I wake up so early today. Usually I will wake up at around afternoon... I looked beside me.. there was no one.. my mum went to work and my brother went downstairs to play with my grandma. So I turn on my hp waiting for hup to message me. At around 12pm I received a SMS. So I open it and thought that it's him.. but it's not.. it's an unknown number. So the person told me that she is from business interest group. There is an interview tomorrow and I have to go. So I told her ok.. I will come tmr. But the matter is she started asking me things about my cca.. both my sec school cca and TP cca. So I was thinking wth.. are you interviewing me now? After asking these questions we stopped chatting.
I waited till 3pm plus and I wondered how come hup haven't come... he is suppose to give me a rented vcd that is supposed to be returned tmr. So I messaged him and he said he will reach my house at around 6 plus. So at around 5pm he messaged me saying he is coming. So ok.. I am waiting.. sian.. I wait and wait.. he didn't come. So I tell him I am going to bath first.. when you reached then sms me.. but he tell me don't bath.. he reaching..lol... After that he reach my house at 6pm plus. I was surprised when he came up to my house.. I thought he forgot which level I lived. We are supposed to meet at the concourse of my house. But he came up. Which I don't know why also..haha.. but hup..thanks anyway...
Today lets talk about erm.... talk about... talk about Singapore.. yes.. our country. Lets talk about Singaporeans too. When people are in trouble.. lets say a country faced natural disaster like earthquake. Is Singaporeans willing to help..such as donating money? lets not talk about other country first. lets talk about our local problems. When society like charity company needs help.. how much are we willing to help?
You see.. what I am trying to say is that... it's not that Singaporeans are not willing to help.. it's just that we experienced too many scamming charity companies that scam people money that we hold back when it comes to donating money.
Who would have thought that that guy in NKF is a scammer? A famous company like NKF scam... who would dare to donate anymore? No matter how many celebrities you invite to come.. the fear is still there... we will still hesitate to donate. When you see an uncle.. without legs.. or without hands.. outside lets say ang mo kio... begging for money.. will you donate? Seeing them like that... they do deserve our pity. But then.. sorry if this sounds offensive.. what happen if they are just trying to scam too? I remember there was once my mother told me she donated money to a guy who only have 1 leg. She then went shopping in that area and went to a toilet. When she got out of the toilet, she saw the same man getting out of the male toilet with 2 legs. So she regretted donating.. it's scamming.
Anyway.. talking about international.. that's why Singapore is always donating items like food...clothes... rather than money... I agree with my mum that once money is donated.. we don't know where will it go. Singapore government donate food/medical supplies to country that are in trouble.. I think that's right..
So many scammers nowadays... be smart.. don't get cheated..
Hmm.. time to watch my movie. Take care!
Hmm.. pardon me for that. Last night I woke up because I smell some strange urine smell. So I touched my pants thinking did I urine when I was sleeping? It was dry and I am sure it's not me. In my room there is only me, my brother and my mum. So I wanted to find where is the source of this smell. Then suddenly I remembered...haha.. silly me.. My brother is wearing diapers.. I forgot.. that's why got urine smell.. So I slept back.
Woke up today at 10am. It was pretty early.. and I wonder why did I wake up so early today. Usually I will wake up at around afternoon... I looked beside me.. there was no one.. my mum went to work and my brother went downstairs to play with my grandma. So I turn on my hp waiting for hup to message me. At around 12pm I received a SMS. So I open it and thought that it's him.. but it's not.. it's an unknown number. So the person told me that she is from business interest group. There is an interview tomorrow and I have to go. So I told her ok.. I will come tmr. But the matter is she started asking me things about my cca.. both my sec school cca and TP cca. So I was thinking wth.. are you interviewing me now? After asking these questions we stopped chatting.
I waited till 3pm plus and I wondered how come hup haven't come... he is suppose to give me a rented vcd that is supposed to be returned tmr. So I messaged him and he said he will reach my house at around 6 plus. So at around 5pm he messaged me saying he is coming. So ok.. I am waiting.. sian.. I wait and wait.. he didn't come. So I tell him I am going to bath first.. when you reached then sms me.. but he tell me don't bath.. he reaching..lol... After that he reach my house at 6pm plus. I was surprised when he came up to my house.. I thought he forgot which level I lived. We are supposed to meet at the concourse of my house. But he came up. Which I don't know why also..haha.. but hup..thanks anyway...
Today lets talk about erm.... talk about... talk about Singapore.. yes.. our country. Lets talk about Singaporeans too. When people are in trouble.. lets say a country faced natural disaster like earthquake. Is Singaporeans willing to help..such as donating money? lets not talk about other country first. lets talk about our local problems. When society like charity company needs help.. how much are we willing to help?
You see.. what I am trying to say is that... it's not that Singaporeans are not willing to help.. it's just that we experienced too many scamming charity companies that scam people money that we hold back when it comes to donating money.
Who would have thought that that guy in NKF is a scammer? A famous company like NKF scam... who would dare to donate anymore? No matter how many celebrities you invite to come.. the fear is still there... we will still hesitate to donate. When you see an uncle.. without legs.. or without hands.. outside lets say ang mo kio... begging for money.. will you donate? Seeing them like that... they do deserve our pity. But then.. sorry if this sounds offensive.. what happen if they are just trying to scam too? I remember there was once my mother told me she donated money to a guy who only have 1 leg. She then went shopping in that area and went to a toilet. When she got out of the toilet, she saw the same man getting out of the male toilet with 2 legs. So she regretted donating.. it's scamming.
Anyway.. talking about international.. that's why Singapore is always donating items like food...clothes... rather than money... I agree with my mum that once money is donated.. we don't know where will it go. Singapore government donate food/medical supplies to country that are in trouble.. I think that's right..
So many scammers nowadays... be smart.. don't get cheated..
Hmm.. time to watch my movie. Take care!
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